Nothingness

Mrs. Donna

I followed the teacher to her classroom.

She sat me down at the back of the classroom, and she them called roll for her class.

"Ok, I'm going to start from bottom to top ok?"

"Zhval, Laurence?" She calls out.

I immediately look up.
I slide out if my seat as he raises his hand, and crawl over to him.
People give me weird looks but I ignore them.. for once.

When I get there the teacher has already called a few more names.
I pinch his leg. He jerks his leg and looks down confused.

"Oh! what the heck? why are you down there?" He whispers, and chuckles lightly.

"Come to the back with me!" I whisper back.
He looks confused but I tug on his leg and he stands up as I crawl back.
Once I get back there she is at the R's.
I slowly slide back up into my seat as Laurence sits next to mine.

"Ro'meave Garroth?"
"Here." He replies softly.
Garroth?
Ro'meave.. wait.. that's Zanes last name!
I look over at him and see that is Zanes brother.
I remember him...

I remember the first time we met..

I guess my face was turning red because Laurence tapped me asked what was wrong.
I quickly think of some excuse for knowing him.

" Garroth made me late to class on my first day of school a few months ago! erm.. yeah! and he flirted with me!" I whisper  to him. I try and sound a little annoyed but I don't think I was very convincing.

He laughs and shakes his head.
"That kid Garroth is my friend. He comes over often, but I told him not to come over for a few weeks. So that you can get used to the new.. setting.. and such.-" Laurence nods his head towards Garroth. " He's not a bad guy, I promise."
I nod and look back at the teacher.
She is still calling names.

After she calls all the names she tells us we have extra time. Garroth comes back and sits with Laurence.

"Hey bro! What's up?" He asks not seeing me at first.

He glances at me then back at Laurence.
Then all of the sudden he looks back at me and says, "Wait.. your..Zanes friend! I remember you! Erm.. well.. I'm sure you um.. remember me heh.. " He studders.

I just nod.

"Um... Laurence told me that he told you not to come over for a while. Well, you can come whenever. I don't mind. I know you already after all. " I tell him with a small smile.

He looks confused on why I'm telling him this.

Laurence laughs.
"I haven't told him yet. " He says to me.

I make a 'oh!' face.
"Oh um.. Hi, I'm Y/n, I'm Laurences little sister!" I say with my hand out trying to keep back a laugh.

Garroths eyes widen but he has a smile on his face.
He shakes my hand and says,"Why hello Y/n! I'm Laurences friend!"

We all laugh.

The teacher walks over to us and sits by me.

"Hello, Y/n was it?" She asks me.
I nod.
She smiles at me, Laurence and then looks at Garroth.
"Garroth can I talk with them please?"
He nods and walks off.

"Hello Y/n. Im Mrs.Donna. Laurence, she is your sister, if I'm not wrong?" She questions Laurence, looking at him.

"Yes ma'am." He replies smiling.

I smile, or try to, at him and then look back at her.
"So.. how come I came here..?" I ask curiously.

"Well.. we were informed about you, and.. well you know what. We have provided maximum security for you, Well, not really security but we are trying to make school a..er.. easier place for you. So all of the teachers know about you, and are always alert. Since Ivy, being the rude girl she is, was acting out, I took you here." She explains.

I nod my head a little upset, with a frown.
so I am getting special treatment.
Because I am unstable.
Because I'm crazy.
Because I'm..
different..

I quietly ask her if I can use the restroom.
She allows me because 'Nobody except teachers should be in the hallways.'
I walk calmly out if the room, but once I get to the hallway I start to run.
I run around trying to find a restroom, holding in my tears.

With only myself.
My thoughts, my sniffs, and the pounds of my flats hitting against the tiled floor as I run.

When I find a restroom I go inside, turn the corner, and just fall.
I don't even care about going in a stall.
I cover my mouth, crying.
Sitting on the floor.. alone.

I have people.
Friends.
Family.
Garroth, Laurence, Cadenza, Aphmau, Mom, Dad, Kyle..
Zane...

But right now..
I'm

all alone..