Nothingness

No thank you

When I woke up this morning my face was dry and salty.
It must have been from all the tears.
I sit up and I Imediatly want to start crying again.
So many things are going on in my mind, and I don't know what to do.
I just feel so overwhelmed with everything and my hormones are everywhere.

The nurse walks in with some breakfast.
"Here ya go hunny." She says with a smile.

I remember the conversatio- thought.. I had with teddy.
I smile at the nurse and stare at the food.

It smells so good..

don't you do it. I know what your thinking. You don't know if you should eat or not.
DON'T!
It will instantly make you a fat pig!

This time I didn't have to close my eyes.
He was just.. a voice in the background.
Just.. just like he was someone whispering behind me, into my ear.

I bite my lip.

"Thank you ma'am, but I don't think I need that. " I try and convince her.

"But your already very skinny. Your underweight from not being properly fed, and we need you to be at least at a healthy weight for you to begin school." She says confused.
I sigh.
As I reach out for the food teddy interrupts.

I said don't eat that! She is lying! She is telling you that just to make you even fatter. She wants you to be bullied. Don't. eat. it.

I pull back my hand.
"C-can I get some p-privacy?" I ask my hand trembling slightly.
She looks confused and suspicious.

She leaves the room and closes the door.
I Imediatly take the tray and start to flush the food down the toilet.
I only keep the drink, because it was milk.

Teddy didn't like that, but I did it anyway.
I can't resist some milk ok?
I love milk.
He said it was to much vitamins and protein and stuff but I couldn't resist!

After that I took a shower, got dressed, brushed my teeth, and etc..

The nurse walked in again as I was carrying the tray back into my room.
I smiled and handed it to her.
Well.. I tried a smile.

She took it and left.