I'm...not a monster? (vampire knight x reader) *UNDER EDIT*

chapter 5: I couldn't control it

*(Y/N)'s P.O.V*

After the conversation with Zero I headed to my room to catch up on the rest I was missing so much. I laid back on the bed with a huff, not even bothering to change out of my uniform, my eyes closed and I was whisked away to dream land.

~In the dream~

"Where am I?" my voice boomed in the dark room, could it be called a room? It was more like a black void. "Is anybody there?" I asked but when no reply came I began to walk what I thought was forward.

I carried on walking even though I had no idea what was in front of me and as expected I walked straight into a wall. I rubbed my nose "oww..." I hissed, trailing my hand over the wall seeing if I could find a light switch or a door of some sort. My hands hit something plastic I traced it with my hand to find a button, when I pressed light flooded the place.

I shut my eyes and winced as I tried to get accustomed to the now blinding light, deciding it was okay I slowly opened my eyes to see it was indeed a room. It looked kind of like an interrogation room, with the one-way mirror, and a table except for the fact everything was white (apart for the mirror of course) the light plus the white was really starting to give me a migraine.

I rubbed my temples softly until I saw something from the corner of my eye, I turned my head to look in that direction "hello?" I asked raising my brow I thought I imagined it as I saw there was nothing there.

I Shook my head and resumed rubbing my temples but it just so happens that I, once again, saw movement in the corner of my eye "seriously! if this is a joke it's not funny!" I yelled "you think this is a joke child?" a cold and dark voice echoed.

I wanted to hear where it was coming from but it seemed to be coming from everywhere "who's there?" I asked cautiously "I am your thoughts, your soul, your very essence. I have many name some refer to me as God, the truth, their conscience, the devil" it replied once again "why can't I see you?" I asked "because child I don't want you to see me" the voice replied.

"What do you want with me?" I questioned shakily. The voice chuckled "I want you to learn the truth...but I think you should figure it out for yourself either that or your dear sister will tell you" the voice said in a mocking voice "my sister? Do you mean Yuki?" I asked "no, your real sister...oops! I've said too much. Well I suppose I should leave now and it's time for you to wake up dear" and that was the last thing I heard the voice say as I was brought back into reality.

~Dream end~

I woke with a jolt 'who the hell was that?' I wondered to myself "my sister?" I whispered "who's your sister?" a voice spoke up suddenly, I jumped in shock. Turning around to see Yuki standing in the doorway "Yuki! You scared me, have you ever heard of knocking?" I scolded.

"Sorry (Y/N), but by sister did you mean me?" she asked pointing to herself "I don't know" I answered honestly "oh well...I just wanted to tell you class is about to start so you better get ready" and with that she left the room, closing the door behind her.

Once I got ready I made my way to the classroom as I usually do for my weekly routine. And as usual I got side tracked by someone but this time it wasn't Yuki, nope this time, it was none other than vampire flirt Hanabusa Aido.

I stomped on the ground making my two daggers fly into my hands "what are you doing out of your dorm Aido?" I questioned, he chuckled and walked towards me and by walked towards I meant practically knocking me over by how close he was.

I moved my daggers so they were across each other in a cross and pushed it against his chest "back up" I said through gritted teeth "you were so rude to Lord Kaname yesterday but I'll let it slide this one time if...you let me punish you in a different way~" he cooed moving my hair so my neck was visible.

"I will not let you drink my blood Aido" I spoke through clenched jaws, anger increasing. He smirked at me "oh, but (Y/N) you do not realize how...delicious you smell do you?" he questioned, I almost gagged at that comment "listen perv. I will not let you get anywhere close to me so back up!" I growled, my patience thinning.

And just my luck the bell ringed so not only did I have a pervy vampire on my hands but I was going to be late to class -- just perfect.

I looked over at the door trying to see if there was anyway to make an escape when I felt Aido move my head to the side even more and psuh my hair out of the way "Aido what are yo-" "ssshh" he silenced me as he got so dangerously close to me neck.

I knew I couldn't stab him not in the position we were in, he had my hands caged in between us, and plus the fact no matter how much I dislike this vampire, I do have a soft spot for him so I can't just stab him.

Aido was trailing his tongue up my neck like a lot of vampires do when they get ready to bite someone, he was feeling for the artery, softening the flesh, warming up the blood. He was prepared to sink his teeth into my flesh.

Aido's sharp fangs pierced my neck and I groaned in pain and discomfort but that just seemed to encourage him as him bit down harder. I heard the horrid gulping sounds as he swallowed my blood greedily. When he got the first sip he hesitated but after that he kept going full force "A-Aido...I-I can't t-take anymore...I'm getting d-dizzy" I muttered out as I tried my hardest to push him away but with the amount of blood he drank I had nowhere near enough strength to be able to stop him.

My eyes started building up with tears "A-A-Aido--" I paused to to hiccup "p-please...stop" I whimpered gently, he seemed to snap out of his hungry state and he pulled away "I made you cry?" he asked.

He wiped his lips with a handkerchief and just carelessly tossed it on the floor "(Y/N)...sorry...I-I don't know what came over me" he said as he stumbled back, guilt glimmering in his light blue eyes.

My vision started to get blurry and the next thing I knew I was on the ground with Aido hovering above me "oh dear...I drank too much" he mumbled as he picked me up bridal style. The blonde sighed and looked down at me "I'm sure you won't believe me...but I am truly sorry" he said, I couldn't really tell because my vision was still blurry but I'm sure he had a sincere look on his face, and with my remaining energy I said one last thing to him before I passed out and I'm sure it shocked him--

"I believe you"