I'm...not a monster? (vampire knight x reader) *UNDER EDIT*

chapter 20: What am i going to do?

*(Y/N)'s P.O.V*

After the drama with Zero and Kaname it was far too early to go to sleep yet, the sun was still uo so i decided to wander around. I shut the door behind and walked around the halls for a little while, but after getting completely bored i headed outside and walked around the grounds for a bit, getting distracted by a humming bird that just flew off i didn't notice there was someone in front of me so i bumped into the muscular chest. I stood back and bowed "sorry-" but i cut myself off and stood back up when i saw who it was "Zero..." i whispered "not with Kuran?" he asked bitterly "no, he went back to the night class. The other students were acting up" i replied "had enough fun with him for now then?" he asked looking off. I scowled "i could ask you the same thing, had enough fun with Yuki?" i asked and he growled "i tried to apologize but you were to busy sucking face with that...vampire!" he hissed "i told you to save it! I didn't want your apology!" i retorted "it wasn't about you! It was about how i felt about what i did!" he snapped "not about me?! You crushed me....twice!" i yelled turning to face him and he faced me "your impossible!" we yelled at the same time "you know Zero, sometimes i hat-" i was cut off when he grabbed my foreamrs and pushed his lips rather roughly against mine.

I struggled a little bit "mmpph!" i tried to get him to stop but it came out as a muffled mess, the mosre i struggled the harder he would kiss. I mentally sighed and stopped struggling allowing him to kiss me freely. He backed away "s-sorry, but...i didn't want you to say you hated me and kissing you was the only way i knew to get you to shut up!" he admitted. I huffed and crossed my arms "why would it bother you so much anyway?" i asked "you never used to care about whether i hated you or not" i continued "because i-" he cut himself off. Balled his fists and looked towards the ground "because...i love you" he whispered and if i was human i wouldn't of heard him but i'm not human so...I gasped and my hand flew to cover my mouth "l-love..." i stuttered. Zero glared at me "yes, love! That day when you found me and Yuki the first and second time...Yuki forced herself on me, i told her about my feelings towards you but she refused to accept it and pretended i said i loved her" Zero told me.

I fell to my knees and ignored the stinging pain i felt when they scraped on the concrete "it doesn't matter if you love me back or not...but at least you know the truth. Now you can hate me all you want" he said as he turned around and started walking away. I stood up hastily and grabbed the back of his jacker causing him to stop "w-wait..." i trailed off, he turned around to look at me "i don't know if i love you, heck i don't know if i love anyone anymore. But promise me one thing" i said "what?" he asked "that you won't give up, on yourself...on me...promise that you will fight for my heart because i may not have the strength to do it myself" i admitted looking towards the ground. Zero turned to me fully and walked close, he used him thumb and index finger to lift up my chin and sent me a very uncharacteristic genuine smile, i smiled back. He leaned in slowly so that if i didn't want this i could pull away at any point, but i made no move. He placed a feathr light kiss on my lips and the walked off, i sighed and rubbed my forehead...oh dear, so many people- no vampires have taken a liking to me. Takuma, Shiki, Aido, Kaname and Zero...what do i do?!

I sat on the edge of the fountain and out my head in my hands and sighed "why would Yuki do that?" i asked myself "why did i do what?" a voice called, when i looked up Yuki was staring at me curiously. I shook my head and sent her a smile "nothing, I was talking about Yuki Sohma from an anime called fruits basket, he keeps on fighting this other character called Kyo. And i just can't see why they din't get along. They would make good friends" i lied smoothly, although i was right. I do watch fruits basket and Yuki and Kyo would make good friends even though they hate each other (fruits basket is a real anime, and those who haven't watched it should because it's really good! You don't have to if you don't want to though...of course)Yuki shrugged and sat next to me "have you seen Kaname?" she asked "i think he's in the night class dorms" i said "okay, thanks! Bye!" Yuki yelled as she ran off in the direction of the night class building. I sighed and leaned back to look at the orange tinted sky 'i really have no idea what i'm going to do...'