I'm...not a monster? (vampire knight x reader) *UNDER EDIT*

chapter 18: Discovery and embarssment

Small author's note, i've been getting a lot of really flattering comments so i decided to update again! I don't know how to dedicate so can someone help me? Anyway's this is dedicated to my biggest completmenter Sapphire_Rose_Klaus for you ^.^ p.s weird chapter i had no idea i where i was going with this...i just wanted to add some Takuma x Reader action and this was the only way i could think of...sorry.

*(Y/N)'s P.O.V*

I awoke to the rom empty as i assumed and the sun gently twinkling through the curtains, and bouncing off of the slihtl dust floating in the air making it visible. I yawned and got up, stretching I got ready for the day but as usualy no school because it's spring break! I missed most of the classes but who cares i had already learnt all of the stuff they were teaching anyway. I jumped out of the window because opening the door would make noise and wake up the other residents. Landing swiftly off my feet i wasn't affected from the blood loss anymore, seeming as i am a vampire my healing speed had been increased. I really didn't want to talk to Zero and Yuki ofr the moment because things were still awkward from...you know what so i decided to head to the night class once again but they were all probably asleep now though. I waved at the gate keeper who just grunted in response, i pushed open the heavy doors slowly trying to be as quiet as possible so i don't get sleepy and angry vampires yelling in my face at 10 in the morning.

When i walked in i was surprised to see Takuma sitting there on the sofa reading, he turned his warm green eyes towards my figure and smiled gently "(Y/N), what a pleasant surprise" he said closing his book and and setting it on the table in front of him with grace only a supernatural being possesses. I smiled back and sat next to him but still quite far so he wouldn't get tempted by my blood, i knew Takuma was one of the kinder vampires and one who didn#t want to drink blood but even i can't control the urges sometimes. We sat there in silence but not the uncomfortable kind Takuma hummed a quiet tune and tapped his finger on his knee to keep with the rythm. I looked around the room from my position i had been in here countless amounts of time but i never really got to take in anything, i gazed at the textures of the walls the colours of the paintings scattered around and the light coming through from the windows the bounced off a vase full with vibrant flowers. But what i didn't know Takums ahd stopped humming and stared at me as i observed my surroundings with an emmotion i'm not sure i recognized. I took in everyting i could then turned back around to Takuma who was patiently sitting there staring at me it seems he hasn't noticed "what?" i asked snapping him out of his daydreaming state.

Takuma shook his head and rubbed the back of his neck sheepishly "sorry i was lost in thought" he apologized "oh, it's fine but...what were you thinking about?" i asked. The emotion in his eyes came back and a blank look was plastered on his face "your hair that flows down your back, which frames your face almost as if you were painted by angels. You eyes so full of...emotion and feeling that no one else that i have met possesses. Your lips, pink soft- looking and dainty...i just wonder how they feel.." he said reaching his hand over. I leaned back a little but he didn't stop his hand landed on my cheek and his thumb inched closer to my mouth until he reached it and started stroking it so softly it tickled. Takuma smiled "just as i assumed, soft as a feather" he said "T-Takuma?" i called, he snapped out of his state and blushed at the position we were in "s-sorry, i don't know what came over me" he said pulling back "it's...okay" i said hesitantly. Takuman's blush went down but mine started to rise as i remembered what had just happened a few minutes ago 'him too?!' i asked myself in my head.

I scooted closer to Takuma 'i'm want to see what activates his trance like state' i thought to myself. Takuma didn't seem to notice as he was reading his book again. I scooted even closer so our legs brushed but akuma still ignored it, i internally groaned i leaned my head on his shoulder but he still didn't notice me. I was at my wits end so i grabbed the book and slammed it down on the table "w-what?" i asked "i'm want to see what activates your trance" i admitted "why? Only bad things would come out of it" Takuma said "exactly i want to see so i an prevent it in the future" i told him "makes sense i suppose but...forgive me if i do anything in my trance i have no control of my actions" he apologized in advance. I nodded understanding and sat facing him, i inched my face closer to his 'oh my go-...i can't believe i'm doing this!!' i screamed in my head. When i was inches from his lips his eyes dulled and were filled with that emotion again, his nervous look was replaced with the blank look again "why do you tease me so?" he asked his voice deeper than usual, he was deifinitely in his trance "T-Takuma snap out of it!" i yelled as he pushed me down on the sofa and straddled my waist "sshh" he said "you'll wake the other's" he whispered.

I tried to push him off but he was stronger than he looked "Takuma! S-stop" i yelled when he nuzzled his nose in my neck "didn't i tell you to keep it down?" he said the unrecognized emotion swirling in his usual bright and happy irises. Takuma leaned down as closed to my face as he could without touching me "how could you?" he asked "w-what?" i stammered "how could you? Make me feel this way" he muttered under his breath but being so close i heard him loud and clear. I stared into his eyes in shock "don't look at me like that!" he ordered "why?" i asked "because...next time i wont be able to stop myself from doing this..." the trailed off "wha-mmmff!" i was cut off when warm pressure met my lips. I still tried to push him off but it was no use, i gradually melted into the kiss and fluttered my eyes shut, i wanted to hold him closer but Takuma had my arms pinned beside my head. Takuma stopped suddenly and my eyes flew open, he pulled away slowly and stared at me with wide eyes "(Y-Y/N)! I-i'm so sorry!" he yelled rushing to get off of me. I was still kind of in shock so i laid there for a little while but Takuma being the gentleman he is lifted me up slowly "i can't believe i did that!" he yelled at himself "Takuma" i said softly, he turned his attention to me with worried eyes "calm down, you did nothing wrong" i said with a smile to show him i was okay.

Takuma apologized once again "again i'm so sorry that was so inappropriate, i'm will understand if you hate me now of course!" he kept on rambling "TAKUMA!" i whsiper-yelled, i put my hand on his cheek softly "i said to stop worrying, i'm fine you did nothing wrong. I forgive you" i assured him "geez (Y/N)...." he whsipered "what?" i asked "if you keep on treating me so kindly then next time i really won't be able to hold back and i'm not sure i would be in my trance state i would do it of my own free will" he muttered. I slowly retracted my hand and blushed crimson "s-sorry, i made things awkward didn't i?" Takuma asked "n-no...but i have to scout the area so i need to go, but ...it wasn't your fault just know that i don't blame you" i smiled and ran out the door leaving a blushing Takuma, myself also flushed, wow...so far 5 guys have seemed to taken a liking to me...what am i going to do?!