We Are Meant To Be

The Next Generation

Somehow we keep finding ourselves here. No matter how hard I fight it, inevitably we end up back in this familiar room. You'd think we'd learn. You'd think we'd avoid it but it never happens and the main reason for it is the man I am staring daggers at right now.

"Is there a reason why you never tell them no?" I ask my husband.

He's currently holding Kit's daughter Love. We've been suckered into babysitting....again. There's a reason why we don't have children and it's this right here. She steals all of his attention.

Is it wrong that I'm jealous of a one year old? Maybe. Do I care? No, not even a little bit.

Right now I bet Kit is having his brains fucked out while I sit here with his husband stealing spawn. She coos and babbles and my man soaks it all in.

"Beam?"

"No."

"But I haven't..."

"No"

"Beam!"

"We are not adopting. You ask every time we take Love for the night. I can't do it. I don't want to. Do you know how focused you are on her? Can you imagine if it lived in our house? I would never get you." I say.

"So the reason you don't want to adopt is because you don't want to share me?" He asks smiling.

"You know it is." I tell him.

It's been two years since I was shot. I don't remember it hurting when I got shot but it hurt like hell when I woke up. The scar isn't bad but Pha looks sad whenever he sees it.

Last year Kit and Forth adopted Love and Pha fell in love instantly. I know he really wants a child but right now I just can't share him. Right now all of my love is focused on him and I want all of his. I know it's selfish but I can't help it.

The fact that I want to take Kit's brat and lock her in a cage tells me I'm not ready yet.

I wake up to find it in bed with us. She wakes up and cries the Pha goes and grabs her and places her between us. Doesn't he know that studies show that co-sleeping is dangerous?

I hear the door rattle. Oh thank god they're back. I walk out into the living room and see Kit and Forth walk in looking refreshed.

"Sleep well Kitty?" I ask.

"I don't know Sunshine, how did you sleep?" He shoots back.

"Well I actually slept if that's what you're getting at." I respond.

"Yeah I did too." he says with a huge smile.

Forth however is not wearing the same smile. Haha that's what you get for bringing a parasite into your house. No sex for you.

"Stop." Kit says smacking me.

"What?" I ask innocently.

"You know what. We had sex just not all night long. I've been exhausted lately between the baby and the hospital. Soooo, I'm thinking about quitting." He says.

"WHAT!? Are you crazy? You worked so hard to get here and you're just going to quit?" I yell.

See another reason those things are bad news.

I'm so irritated now. And he wants to bring one of those things into my house. Does he plan on quitting because I'm not.

"Why can't Forth quit? He owns two companies, does he actually need to be at work?" I point out.

Kit looks over at Forth and smiles.

"That's what I said too." Kit says.

"But I'll still cut back, I want to be with her too." He admits.