I did a thing.
I messaged a guy. Let that sink in. A GUY!! On Instagram. He goes to my church. I've talked to him a few times. (I can't talk to guys, it makes me incredibly nervous.) He remembered my name the second time we talked, which is huge for me. (Last guy I had a crush on forgot who I was three times.)
Anyway, I hadn't seen him as small group in a while. Apparently his anxiety about being in a group was to much. I have anxiety. I completely understand.
So yesterday I sent him a message. Just a casual one that says hi, hope your having a good Christmas.
I don't ever do anything like this!!! But I felt that there's nothing wrong with a girl Pershing a friendship with a guy. No different than if he was a girl, right?
No reply back yet. Silently freaking out. I didn't just step out of my comfort zone. I leaped across an ocean out of my condor zone.
Oh well, if he doesn't reply it's not like I actually see him that often for things to be awkward.
Thank you for reading my 8am, just woke up thoughts.
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