Mind of ZAYN ✔️ Zarry

ch. 2 ✏

Zayn (2011)

Louis and Harry went out today. And I wonder where did they go and what are they doing? As much as I want to go with them, I have to stay. I trust Louis, only in the fact that he's not stealing my Haz.

But, I can't think properly. What if Louis had told him? What if Harry avoids me now? What would his reaction be? I know it would be awkward because we're both guys.

But, can you blame me for falling in love with him? Fvck! I don't like this feeling. I got up from my seat and I felt Liam and Niall watching me fixing myself.

"Where are you going? It's 8 already," Liam asked while I grabbed my hoodie.

"Out. Just out." I answered. I will find them. I don't know where. But I'll try. I'm just getting nervous.

I am this worried. I am about to open the door and leave when Louis and Harry came in.

They were laughing and all, and I'm just watching them. What the hell just happened? What's funny when I went crazy all day thinking about what they are doing? Call me jealous or paranoid or something, I don't care.

"Yow' what's up? Where you've been?" Niall bro fists Louis and they sat up on the couch with them. "Today was a blast for me! And I have to thank Harry for that." Louis said smiling widely and grinning at Harry. I'm really pissed off right now.

"You look very happy today, Tommo," Niall said before eating his pizza again.

"I thought you going out, Zayn?" Liam asked again and their eyes are on me now. I eyed Louis first before turning to Liam. "Yeah. I need some air to breathe." I said before walking out of the room.

I stroll outside the hotel. I walked as far as I could. I put on my hoodie as a disguise. I don't need some screaming fans right now. I am so pissed. I don't want my anger on them. It will just complicate things.

I stopped at the nearest park. I sat up on one of the swings and embrace myself. I feel so cold right now. I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket so I took it out.

@Louis_Tomlinson
Always in my heart @Harry_Styles. Yours sincerely, Louis

Fvck! And what does Louis want to show me? What's the meaning of this? I thought he's my best friend. I thought I could trust him. But, why did he fvcking betray me?! What bad did I do to him? Do I deserve this? Fvck! I hate myself right now.

There are so many possibilities going on my mind now. And it's not good for me. Fvck this! Why do I feel this way though? I did not agree with this.

As long as I want to stay outside this late, I need to head back before Paul could bring securities unto town searching for me. I walked fast and a good thing, people don't recognize me.

And when I got back, all of them were already sleeping. I got to bed and stared at my angel's face. What did you do to me, Harry?

Why is it have to be you? And now, how can I act like there's nothing wrong? I've been dying to tell you, but I guess Louis had the guts. You know it hurts?

Because it fucking hurts. If only you can hear me. If only you can understand? I didn't mean to fall in love, but I'm here now. And I don't know how to get out.

Please tell me what to do, Harry. Because I'm so broken. And I don't like this feeling. I wiped my tears and controlled my crying, I don't want them to wake up and hear me crying.