Mind of ZAYN ✔️ Zarry

ch. 5 ✏

[Flashback]

"So how was the kiss?" Harry sarcastically asked Zayn when he entered their room. Zayn was about to kiss Harry's cheeks but stopped. He sighed before rubbing the back of his head.

"Babe, I-I'm sorry, okay? You know it's just a drama. You know it's just a show." Zayn explained. Harry rolled his eyes. A show? Planned? But why he didn't know about it. He was shocked to see those posts on social media. He felt like he's been fooled.

"But why didn't you tell me about that? Why it has to happen? Why there is a need for engagement? What for? Why did you agree to this? Yes, we ALL know this is all fake. But why?" Harry couldn't take it any longer. He's not only getting jealous. He's broken. Zayn wants to answer all of those questions but he couldn't.

"Sorry, babe. I-I don't know. It's the management. It isn't me." There are tears in Zayn's eyes ready to fall.

"Sorry?! Is that all you can say? Then what?! You said you love me. You said that I'm the only one. You said it! Then why all of these are happening right now? Tell me what should I feel. Tell me how am I supposed to react!" Harry wants to calm down. Harry wants to talk to Zayn about this in a nicer way. But what can he do? He needed to burst this all out.

Instead of answering his lover, Zayn pulled Harry closer for a kiss. A kiss that he wants to make Harry feel that he is the only one, that he will always be the one for him. That no one can ever replace him. A kiss that is full of love. Harry, on the other side, kisses back. He misses his Zayn. He wants to give his all. He wants to show his love for Zayn. He wanted to make Zayn feel that he couldn't live without him.

They got on the bed. Not pulling away from the kiss. "I love you, Harry. I really really love you, Haz." Zayn said before closing the small distance between them and kissing Harry. Slowly at first, barely moving, only the press of lips. He sighed contently and started moving his lips slowly, happy when the boy kissed him back.

Zayn's hands went to Harry's hips, pressing him close while opening his mouth a bit to deepen the kiss. The boy on top opened his mouth and suddenly their tongues touched making both moans.

It was so sweet and slow.
Zayn's kiss went down on Harry's neck. Harry moaned a little. It's what he wanted, to feel Zayn's lips on his body. He wanted to feel Zayn inside of him. He pulled Zayn's hair as he felt his hardened member. He wanted more.

Harry didn't notice how it happened, but they both are naked and Zayn's kisses went down on Harry's nipples. Sucking it. Hard. Harry groaned. He moves his hips to the rhythm of Zayn's body.

Zayn lined his hardened member to Harry's hole and slid in. They both moaned and Zayn intertwined their hands as Zayn thrusts harder and harder. There are no words to describe how they're feeling right now. Harry reaches Zayn's lips as both move to the rhythm. Zayn thrusts harder until they're so close.

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Harry cupped Zayn's face and kissed his lips. He traced his outlines, from Zayn's eyebrows to his jawline that he really loves. He watches Zayn sleeping peacefully. They made love. It's not just sex for him. It's how they show their love for each other, and honestly, Harry really missed Zayn so much. All of this acting and girlfriend thingy is getting on his nerves. He wants Zayn for him only. He doesn't want to share what's his. Yes, he knows that they talked about it a million times. But not after what Perrie said to him the night before Zayn and her left for travel.

'Harry, I know you're a good and an amazing person. And I'm happy that you understand this situation, but I just want to be honest with you. I don't want you to feel that I am betraying you, I feel like I'm falling in love with Zayn. I know he's yours. But Zayn is so kind and lovely, that I cannot resist loving him in a special way like this. I am so sorry, Harry. I just don't want to ruin our friendship that's why I'm saying this to you.'

Perrie's words are like a knife on his chest that night. He didn't say anything back. He left out of words. His tears rolled down. He's crying again. He wishes to become a woman, for him to be the right one for Zayn. But he knows it's impossible.

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I am so that "trying hard" for the smut. I'm sorry. Tbh, I really don't know how to write those, and yes, it is so lame. Please bear with me :(
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All the love.
A.