Mind of ZAYN ✔️ Zarry

ch. 25 ✏

Harry holds a grip on his mic as he sings his last song for tonight's show. He was nervous all the way doing this show, because of the spreading news about him and Zayn. He doesn't seem well doing this, but this is his job. And he wouldn't let his fans down by that news. He's trying his very best for this show, although he has this big lump in his chest.

But he was surprised because the crowd seemed to enjoy the night, and they are so loud, singing happily with him. He smiled. He already concluded earlier that this show was going to be his worst, and that the people should be throwing tomatoes and rocks against him, hating him, and calling him names. Gigi had confirmed the breakup on Twitter and had said nothing about the reason behind it. They all have kept quiet about the issue. And Harry is very thankful that his mates were so supportive, as well as their parents and friends. And even their fans have been defending them against those who are claiming bad and negative approaches to him and his bandmates. However, the boys and their families did not talk about it, not a single word.

He closes his eyes to feel the emotion building up inside him as he sings If I Could Fly as the final song of tonight
He hears the crowd singing with him. Soon, his eyes opened widely because of the chants of the crowd.

"Zarry! Zarry! Zarry!"

The crowd cheered repeatedly. His heart beats fast. He doesn't know how to react. Stuttering, he continued to sing. And when he ended the song, the crowd yelled.

"WE LOVE YOU, HARRY! WE LOVE ZARRY!"

His heart melted. He cried tears. He is feeling glad and overjoyed. He simply wipes his tears and bowed to the crowd. Sending kisses with his hands and mouthing "thank you" endlessly.

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Harry skeptically bit his lip as he taps his finger on the table. He didn't know why he's here and what to say. He just knows that he needs to do this. For relief and completely forgetting the past.

His heart started to pound hard when he heard the bell of the entrance door rang. And there she is. She looked around, looking for someone to meet. Then her eyes landed on gorgeous green eyes. She smiled. Harry hesitated but smile back.
Flashbacks started to run on his head.

***After their OTRA tour in 2015, Harry finds his way to look for his boyfriend backstage. He found Zayn and Perrie talking and laughing. His heart sank into the view. How can Zayn be happy with the girl who ruined his relationship? He reached for them furrowing.

"Zayn, let's go." He said. Grabbing his forearm.

"Uhm, Harry, I'll ride Perrie back home." Zayn nervously answered. He frowned.

"Why? Is she 5 or something?" He sarcastically asked.

"No, Harry. Just that, for a show, remember?" Zayn tried to convince.

"The show is over. Break up with her. You don't need her anymore." Harry just shrugged the words. Zayn's eyes widened.

"Harry, I...can't. I.. let's talk about this later... okay? I'll just drive her home." Zayn said, grabbing Perrie's hand.

Harry felt so betrayed at the moment. He wants to yell. To be mad.

"Okay, if you still insist, then we're done. We're over, Zayn." He said. He doesn't know why he said that. It just came out. Now he feel nervous, about what Zayn would answer. Perrie gasped. Zayn was surprised. All of them were.

"So you choose. It's me or Perrie." He said, scared but he wants to end this painfulness he's feeling every time his boyfriend is with another girl.

"Harry, what the f.uck? What are you doing?" Zayn asked, panicking.

"End whatever it is you have with her, Zayn. You're with me. I should be the only one. no one else." Harry replied. Still glaring on their hands together.

"Zayn, I'm okay, I have my driver, go with Har--"

Perrie was interrupted by what Zayn said.

"Okay, fine. I'm so done with your jealous bitchy behavior. I thought you understand this. I'm tired of your possessiveness. Let's break up if you want." Zayn said getting angry. Harry's mouth parted. Unbelievable. He thought. His heart tore into pieces. Tears already escaped from his eyes.

Zayn left with Perrie, still holding her hand. Leaving Harry so helpless and alone. Harry felt like someone is stabbing his chest. It's over. Over. Four years had gone so fast. What he'll do now? How can he live without Zayn?

He sighed. He shakes the thought out of his head. He got up from his seat to welcome her.

"Hi, Harry. Long time no see." Perrie said. Hugging Harry.

"Hi, Perrie. How've you been?" He asked pulling away. Harry led her to her seat and they're settled.

"I'm okay. I'm fine. How about you?" She asked widely smiling. Harry just smiled.

"I heard the news." She added.  Looking so worried, yet happy for them. Harry sighed.

"Yeah. I guess I'm a total wrecker." He replied sadly. Perrie held her hand that's on the table.

"You aren't, Haz. Ever since Zayn is yours. That's why I feel so horrible now if it weren't for the things that had happened in the past, you and Zayn are still together, happily. Then there would be no Zigi. I'm very sorry, Harry. You know that I am." She squeezed his hands and smiled apologetically.

"No, Pez. It's not you. And I can't still blame you for that. You just fall in love And I know you sacrificed so much. You deserve him back then. I know how you dealt with your feelings, how you fought them. And, Zayn's very lucky to have you when I broke up with him." He said, fighting the urge to cry.

"No, Harry. I have never had him. Even when he moved with me, I never had his heart." She admitted smiling weakly. Harry frowns.

"Every sex we had, every night he's sleeping beside me, every dream he had, it was your name, Harry. You were the only one. There's was never a Perrie for him. At first, I thought there is. But, when you started to distant yourself, he f.ucked around. He cheated on me with different girls. And I had to deal with that for a year. Because he loves you, Harry. He does." Perrie explained. Harry didn't know about this. He never asked Zayn about what happened after that night. And now he was more than surprised.

"That's why part of me, was really happy when he and Gigi broke up. Because you two are now free." She chuckled a bit. Harry laughed silently. He didn't know what to say. It's unbelievable.

"But, I hope you're okay, Harry. I hope you're happy. Zayn and your happiness are what matters to me." She said sincerely.

"Thank you so much, Perrie. I owe you a lot. Thank you for everything. I've been bad to you back then, but you remained my friend. A good friend." Harry replied. His heart his overflowing with joy.

"Well, you taught us to treat people with kindness, yeah?" She giggled. They laughed. And the nervousness and awkwardness flew away from their systems. Finally, Harry can breathe freely now. That he and Perrie are now friends again.

He seems so proud. He did it. He did this for Zayn. Because he loves Zayn so much. He wanted to forget the past. And embrace what'll come for the two of them. He needed to move on from the ghost of the past. For them to start a new and fresh beginning.

He realized that he didn't give his all, the efforts, the love, the support that he should have given to Zayn back then. But now, he promised himself that he will be there for Zayn. In any problems, and struggles. He will love Zayn more than ever. No matter what will come, or what circumstances they will encounter, he will NEVER leave Zayn again.

Never in a million years.

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