Mind of ZAYN ✔️ Zarry

ch. 26 ✏

Zayn

It's been 3 months after Gigi and I broke up. Things were not easily handled as we expected them. Fans are decreasing, half of them are disappointed and half of them stayed. Our true fans.

We didn't even bother explaining. We didn't confirm our relationship yet. We remained silent for the past three months. Many people believed. Many people put up some stories. Just like the old times. Many say that they know it already and many say that Zarry is just a cover for Larry or Ziam. And the worst is, they say that Harry and Perrie planned on ruining Zigi just because they became friends again. People are so imaginative sometimes. Or so I thought? But we didn't talk back to anyone.

It's a bit stressful because yeah, we're about to come back and I just released my Z2. And all of these issues really affected our careers. We are just thankful enough because the boys are supporting and helping us. Especially our families. Mom's proud of me for what I've done. She said that for a long time, I've finally followed my heart. Waliyha is so happy for me and Harry as well as Safaa and Doniya. Because you know, they are zarries.

But when it comes to Harry's family, Anne and Gemma, it became a little bit more difficult. They said that they don't know if they can trust me again this time 'cause I did so wrong in the past. I understand that they are just protecting Harry, but I assured them that I won't do it again. That I'm willing to give everything and do anything for Harry. It took me 3 months to convince them. And I'm so happy that they trust me again. I told them that I won't waste this chance they'd given me.

After I moved out of New York, I stayed in our headquarters. Louis said that I can live with Harry if I wanted to, but we resist. It's not that easy right now. Plus, we haven't talked to the management yet. Even though I and Harry signed out, we still have to deal with them. Liam suggested that we should find another management, we are still considering that, but not for now. Maybe in the next two months.

What's difficult about this is, I'm missing Harry so much. He's back on his tour, him and Niall. While Liam, Louis, and I are currently unemployed. We're doing shows, and interviews, but that's all since we've decided not to tour. I'm just seeing Harry twice a month, and the worst is, no chance at all. I was thinking if I could go with him, on his tour, but I know that he'll just resist. Well, it's not that long enough for the biggest comeback of 2019. I would say that we only have 8 months to prepare everything. And we're doing fine. Just worrying for Harry because he's working too much, his tour and our rehearsals, that's why if we're together, we barely talk and enjoy ourselves because he's already tired. I do understand that, 'cause I know it'll be worth it though.

My relationship with Gigi after we broke up didn't go well. I expected it. Her mom called me names and judged me. I understand.
When I moved out of our apartment, Gigi didn't talk to me, nor look at me. I apologized to her a thousand times, I even told her that I could be her friend if she needs me, but she didn't take the offer. I know that she's brokenhearted. She's hurt. And that'll take time for her to heal and to move on.

I know that we broke up in a way that I didn't plan and expected. But either way, it's still gonna happen because I love Harry. And I'll do everything for him. For us.

It's a Tuesday night, and I set up a dinner date for me and Harry at the back of the house. Not that I don't want to bring him to a classy restaurant or somewhere, I just want it to be special. Harry's been working so much, he's probably tired. I just wanted to make him dinner, and make him happy. I put so much effort for tonight. I cooked the food for us. And of course, Liam and Louis helped me in settling the place. Candles rose petals and soft kinds of music. It'll be perfect.

"Harry will be here in an hour. Time to take a bath and dress, bro." Liam said as he put the finishing touches on the table.

"Go ahead, we'll be here." Louis patted my shoulders. I then hopped upstairs to get ready.