All For One (Depression)

Part 15 - Mum's Last Wish

Suddenly, the door to Louis' room opened ever so slowly. It creaked a little as they could feel a shudder. Liam's jaw dropped at the sight of him standing there. Not a word from The heavens as he saw. Niall and Harry were standing behind him, too in shock to move their joints. Louis was too. He was beginning to shake. It was like he somehow knew he'd show up.

"Zayn?" Liam questioned.

"Hey, guys. Niall and Harry told me about what happened. Can....can I have a moment alone with Louis?" Zayn asked, his hands shaking.

"Uhh, yeah sure."

Liam, Niall, and Harry all walked out, leaving Louis alone with Zayn. Zayn was so worried about Louis. Even after all that happened in the past, he still loved him deep down. Louis wasn't buying it. In the past, him and Zayn had a few fights and it just got to the point where he couldn't take it anymore. That was the real reason he left One Direction. He needed to get away from it all.

"Are you okay?" Zayn asked Louis, who layed there all banged up on the hospital bed. Louis didn't want to look at him. He was still mad, even after all those years later. He simply turned his head around, laying on his right side so Zayn didn't see his sad face. Zayn took in a few deep breaths before talking again.

"Louis......I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not being there. I wanna be friends again."

"Too late," Louis mumbled under the thin covers.

"Louis...all that I did.....that was the person I was, not the person I am. Please, I'm sorry."

Louis kept silent. He hid his eyes good while a few drops dripped down from them. He didn't want to give Zayn more power by showing him how weak he was. So Louis just stayed there, all quiet. He quietly whimpered a bit.

"Louis, I'm here for you mate. I want to help you." And that's what broke Louis. He had enough of Zayn's babbling.

"NO!" Said Louis, his fists tightening. "You're not here for me. You don't want to help me! You're a liar!"

"Louis, if you just listen to me and let me explain......"

"EXPLAIN?? Explain what? YOU ARE A TRAITOR! YOU DON'T EVEN CARE ABOUT ME OR THE GUYS!"

Louis started getting more and more furious. His heart rate rose rapidly, causing alarms to sound. Zayn was beginning to panic. He didn't want to make Louis go crazy but he just wanted him to know that he didn't mean anything before. Louis however, didn't believe Zayn for a second. He tried so hard in his past to forget Zayn and forget all the pain that he caused. He sat there, biting his lip, drawing little beads of blood.
Louis was at his last straw with people fighting with him on everything. People always yelling at him, telling him what to do and how to act, or anything like that. It really made him mad and now, he was showing it. He let his emotions come out completely, not holding anything back. Zayn teared up a little, listening to the sound of Louis' voice, the pain in his tone, the sadness in his eyes. It was heart wrenching.

"Louis," Zayn began. "I know I hurt you. I know so many other people did too. You're scared. I know what that feels like. For a while, I felt the same. Not knowing what to do or say, just stood there silent. I felt lonely, like nobody even cared that I was who I was. When I left the band, I felt like I was free to do what I wanted and not have to be rushed into anything. That really helped me. I'm not saying you should leave the band....but I'm just saying that I know what you're going through. Don't be afraid. I want to help you. And I'm going to do whatever it takes to as well. Just let me."

Louis kept his mouth shut, staring into Zayn's eyes, looking at the sorry in his pupils. He felt like Zayn had guts to say something like that. He was true. His heart was telling Louis what he was honestly feeling. And that made Louis' face light up. Louis quickly jumped forward, grabbing Zayn and pulling him in for a strong hug. Louis sobbed loudly as he planted his face into the Bradford boy's shoulder. Zayn gently rubbed Louis' back as he wept. Niall, Liam and Harry all stood outside the room, looking in through the door. Their eyes filled with water, watching Louis and Zayn regain their friendship. His mum would be proud. That was, after all, her last wish for Louis before she died. All she wanted, was for her son to reunite with Zayn and be friends again. All that fighting they did was not working for her. She wanted Louis to be happy. So when she was looking down at him in a hospital bed, holding Zayn tight and crying deeply in his arms, it probably made her feel good inside. Knowing that her son never let her down. Never.
Louis cried louder, rubbing his teary eyes all over Zayn's white T-shirt. Zayn held him close, calming the poor boy down a bit. It was like calming a child. Being there for him, was all he wanted. Zayn got his wish. So did Louis. Well, sorta.

"I'm sorry, Zayn," Louis whimpered.

"It's okay. It's not your fault, man," Zayn replied.

"Yes it is," Louis mumbled to Zayn. "I'm a bloody mess. I not only endangered myself, I also endangered the entire band as well. This is all my fault. I blamed you and I'm sorry. My dad was right. I'm a terrible person."

Zayn lifted Louis' head, making him look at him. "Louis, you're not a terrible person. You're a very good person. And sometimes, terrible things might happen to you. But that's a big part of the good that comes out inside you. You touch people's hearts at the worst of times and make them feel better. That's something to be very proud of. I know you are going through a lot of shit. I get it. But all of us just want to help you. We love you, Freddie does, Eleanor does, and most important, your mum does. She wants the very best for you and that's what you're going to give her. Make her proud."