All For One (Depression)

Part 20 - We Could Be Heroes....Just For One Day

Louis' eyes opened to the sound of the TV. He turned his head over to see someone standing beside him on the bed. A woman with a beautiful smile and lovely brown hair. Her skin as pale as Niall's. Eye to eye, they watched, until a smile was shown on her face, making Louis happy.

"M...Mum?" He asked the woman.

She nodded her head slightly. Louis was confused. He thought his mum was dead. How was she here? It was all questions planted in his brain but he blocked them out, focusing on being with his mother again. He reached for her hand as he perched up on the bed. Johannah's hand reached too. But all of a sudden, their hands passed, a ghostly like figure. He trembled as he pulled back, watching his mother's eyes fade and her smile turn into a sad frown. Her body slowly faded away, making Louis lose sight of his mum's shadow.

"NO! PLEASE, COME BACK!" Screamed the boy.

And just like that.....she was gone. Louis was lost in a puddle of tears, as he wept for his mum. He wanted her so badly and he felt like he couldn't go on without her. It was just too painful. His heart felt broken. Shattered bits of it tore off and found its way over to the darkness, the path he was trying so hard not to go down.

Louis' POV>

My mum, she......she was there. Just looking at me and.....*sighs* dammit! I wish she was here. It's the worst feeling ever to know that you lost someone that you just can't live without. That one person who made such an incredible difference to your life. And now, it all ends with a simple stop of the heart. You almost feel ashamed. It murders you in your sleep every night. That someone could be that important. And without them, you feel like nothing. It's just so hard for people to understand. I guess no one will ever understand how much it hurts. I've turned myself into a monster. I've yelled at my mates, scared my son, even hurt the love of my life. Out of everything that I've been through, what if I'm the bad guy? It's just not worth hurting all the people I love.

And the way I screamed at Niall.....I should never have done that. Not while he was emotional about his mother. The way he looked at me........*tilts head down* what kind of friend am I to do such a thing? I'm useless. Everything is useless. There's just no more hope. I....I have to make things right. I have to make things right. No matter what the cost. This has to be done. I've hurt too many people. I can't live like this anymore. Hell, I'm scared, but sometimes, you need to work through it and just get it over with.

The boys think they're helping me, but they're not. I pushed Eleanor away from me, even my own sister. And now...now my own son won't even look at me. This is going to be probably the hardest things I will ever do. It's going to destroy everything. But I just know this way, I won't hurt anyone else. I won't be a bother to people. This way, they can be free from the monster inside me.

No POV>

Louis got up from his bed, and stumbled his way over to the door. He snuck out of the house without the boys noticing and got to his car. But Harry heard a noise come from outside. He peered out the window to see Louis in his car, starting it up. Harry quickly got the lads attentions and they all ran outside to get Louis.

"LOUIS WHAT ARE YOU DOING??" Liam yelled. "LOUIS STOP!"

Louis couldn't hear. He slowly drove backwards down the driveway, not seeing another car coming his way. It was Zayn's. He honked his horn, trying to slow down when......