All For One (Depression)

Part 12 - Unexpected Visitor

They were all downstairs, watching an episode of Stranger Things on Liam's X-Box. Louis wasn't so fond of watching a show where a little kid kinda felt the same way he did in a way. It scared him even more. But he didn't bother telling anyone. Harry could sense he was uncomfortable.

"Shall we watch something else, Louis?" Asked Harry.

"No. No it's fine. Really, it's okay."

And just like that, they all continued. It was all nice and peaceful for the boys until the doorbell rang. Liam got up from his seat and strode over to the door. His face paused at the sight of Troy Austin standing outside the door. Liam kept himself calm by breathing nice and easy. He felt his heart skip a few beats though. He cleared his throat.

"Uhh I'm sorry but I don't think he wants to see you right now," Liam stated, as he started shutting the door. But Troy kept his hand on the hinge. He came in, staring Liam down with an evil grin. Then, his eyes fixed on Louis, who sat on the couch next to the rest of the boys and Eleanor. Louis closed his eyes tight. "Shit!" He thought to himself. He was completely frozen when he heard his dad talking to Liam. He didn't want to turn around. But the sound of his father calling the boys out really pissed him off.

"Louis! Thank god you're ok, son!" He yelled, running up to him and hugging him. Louis managed to break free from his fathers grip. He took a few steps back, staring into his terrifying eyes.

"Troy, I want you to leave now!" Louis said in a stern voice. His father growled back, not putting up with any of Louis' problems again. He pushed him aside, looking at the boys, even looking at Eleanor who held Freddie close. He scoffed at all of them. Blaming Louis' problems on them. All of them. It wasn't fair. Not to anyone and certainly not to the whole band.
Just at that moment, Troy picked up Niall by his shirt. He was mad. But mad at him for what? What did Niall ever do? I'm sure it wasn't that bad. After all, Niall's an angel, according to Louis.

"Louis doesn't deserve someone like you!" Troy screamed in Niall's face. Niall knew he had done something wrong but the thing is, he was awfully proud of it. He didn't care what happened to him at that point. He had to stick up for Louis. He cared way too much about him to even notice sometimes.

"ALL I DID WAS TELL YOU TO LEAVE TOMMO ALONE! HE DOESN'T DESERVE A FATHER LIKE YOU!! NOBODY DOES! YOU'RE CRUEL AND YOU KNOW IT! I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU DO BUT LEAVE LOUIS OUT OF THIS!" Niall fiercely said. The whole room went silent. Louis had no idea that such a temper could come out of Niall's mouth. He knew he swore a lot and everything but he didn't know he could ever get so aggressive. Seeing Niall mad, really made Louis think hard about the people who actually did care for him.

"No I think you need to stay outta this, boy!" Troy commanded, pushing Niall to the ground. Harry stepped in front of Troy, blocking his path to Louis. Okay, now things were getting a little intense. Liam opened the front door, wishing Louis' father would just walk out already. But Troy was a persistent man. All he wanted, was for Louis to listen to him. He pushed Harry aside. Louis sat up, furious look on his face as he stood complete face to face with his birth father. Their noses almost touched.

"Louis, you need to stop this now. You're only hurting yourself. Maybe you should quit the band," Troy said.

"Excuse me? Who are you to tell me what I should do?" Louis sighed. Niall hid behind the couch, scared that a massive fight was going to break out. And he sure wasn't wrong. Louis' father screamed and screamed, yelling at Louis to act like an adult.

"STOP IT LOUIS! THIS IS EXACTLY WHY YOUR MUM LEFT! SHE DIDN'T DIE BECAUSE OF SOME STUPID CANCER, SHE DIED BECAUSE OF YOU!"

Silence. Freddie started crying up a bloody storm. Louis stood still, not a bone in his body moved. In his mind, this was it. He wanted to officially die now. His heart was dead shattered. His hands started to tremble. Troy walked out of the house, mad, running to his car. Eleanor held Freddie tight, calming him down. Louis said nothing. He was devastated by what his dad told him. No life was left in Louis' soul. Not a spec. He just wanted it all to end. The worst part, he secretly knew his dad was probably right. He was ashamed of what he became. A monster.

"Louis? You alright?" Asked Harry.

Louis said nothing then suddenly, bolted out of the living room and up the stairs like lightning. Slammed the door behind him. The boys felt powerless to do anything that would help. Louis was being defeated by his own self. What could they possibly do? As Niall rose to his feet, he jolted forward, wanting to walk upstairs to get Louis but Liam placed his arm in his way. Liam told Niall to just give him space. It was such a difficult time for Louis and they just wanted him to maybe have some time to just be alone. Eleanor wiped her eyes, cradling Freddie. She too, felt like there was just no hope. There was no more light inside. Just darkness. Bitter darkness, clouding Louis' heart and life. Louis was a broken man.

Louis' POV>

I still can't believe my own dad would say that to me. It really made me feel like everything I do is all my fault. It probably is. "How am I supposed to even show myself out there again?" I thought. All that pain and misery will just knock right back inside me. Not that it even left in the first place. No, it was still there, but seeing the lads fight for me made me feel happy. Ugh I just don't know what to do. It's like I'm living in this black hole. Like, there's definitely no way out. I'm only in there with my body. But ONLY my body. I feel as if my heart faded away. So did my brain. As crazy and dumb as that probably sounds, it's true. And ever since my mu......ah crap! I can't talk about her right now. It's too painful. I just wish I didn't have to feel like this all the time. Do I run away? Do I stay? Tough choices for a person like me to have to make. Maybe I should just keep talking about it to people. Try and open up more. But who? Niall? Nah. He's too soft. Not that I didn't trust the guy. He's great, just not the kind of guy for me at the moment. El? No, she'll just keep telling me to stay strong for the sake of little Freddie. Ugh! I'm pinned against the wall for my life! I can't do anything. But wait! In my dream, I talked to Zayn. Although he did tie me to a bleeding chair and torture me for something I didn't even know I did. But he's still a good person. And it was only a dream. Just that. My m.....mum would have wanted me to talk to him. I can't let her down. Okay. I can do this. I know I can. They want me to get help, then help I shall get!!