All For One (Depression)

Part 13 - The Attempt

Louis pulled out his phone from his pocket. Hesitating a moment before going down to Zayn's number. This was it. No turning back. But it had to be done. For his mum. He clicked on Zayn's number. The phone rang several times. Then all that showed up, was Zayn's voicemail. Louis sighed but pressed on. He simply left Zayn a message.

"Hey Zayn. It's Louis. I don't know if you're able to chat or not but.......okay I take back what I said a long time ago about never wanting to speak to you again. I just........I...." Louis started tearing up and crying, not holding anything back. He wanted Zayn to hear it all. "I-I-I just feel so alone right now and I don't know if you care or not but......just.....just call me back." And Louis hung up.

It all shook Louis in a way that he had never felt. Now, his heart sank deeper than anything. He was feeling very lost. He thought talking to Zayn about it would clear things up and give him some perspective but as it turns out, it only made things worse. Louis scrunched up next to a pillow and cried. Cried for hours it seemed. It never wanted to stop. The pain never went away. He used to be a popular boy in a famous band but now, he just felt like nothing. As he gripped the pillow tight, he pulled himself up off the bed and looked at the wall. His eyes were completely drained. Almost no color at all. He sat there for a minute or two. Breathing heavily. When it hit him. He knew what he had to do. He got up to his feet and quietly made his way out the door and into the bathroom. He didn't want the boys to hear him. He stared at himself in the mirror. The mirror reflecting his pain, his troubles, his past. It all fell on top of him and he had enough.
He reached his hand out to the cabinet just at the top of the sink. Took a few seconds to find it but he just grabbed whatever he could. A small pill bottle was in his grasp. He just looked at it, crying his eyes out. He truly thought about it hard. If this was actually to happen, what would the lads think? But he didn't care anymore. All he longed for, was to end his suffering. End his pain he had, and end the hole in his heart.

Liam was sat next to Harry on the couch. They all were. Trying to figure out what to do next about Louis. Liam quickly got up. He told everyone that he was going to go to the bathroom. His feet swayed as he made his way up the crooked stairs. He was about to enter when all of a sudden, he heard Louis grunt. Not his usual grunt that he does when he's angry or something. Liam was scared about what was going on. "Louis? Are you okay?" Liam asked, whilst opening the bathroom door. And the terrifying sight caught Liam's eye. Louis with the pill bottle fully open and off, and he had one in his hand, just about ready to pop it right in.
"NOOO!" Liam screamed at the top of his lungs. Everyone downstairs heard and raced up to see Liam literally fighting Louis for the pills. The boys were horrified out of their minds. Niall rushed in and tried pulling Louis away. So did Harry. Eleanor ran down the hall with Freddie so he wouldn't see. Liam managed to tackle Louis to the ground, the pills flying everywhere. Louis bursted out full blown tears and cried for what seemed like ages. Niall almost had a heart attack watching Louis almost kill himself. Harry stood beside Liam, who had the saddened Louis in his arms. Harry reached down and placed his hand on Louis' leg.

"No! JUST, JUST PLEASE LET ME DIE!" Screamed Louis. Harry could not bear to see Louis so miserable and upset. The fact that he was actually willing to take his own life, scared him even more.
Eleanor rushed to her phone and immediately called 911. Freddie was crying, not understanding what was going on. (Poor kid). He didn't understand why his dad was so upset and why people were crying and panicking. Meanwhile, Liam still held Louis on the bathroom floor. Louis all tired like and weary. And VERY weak. Harry got down on his knees.

"Louis, it's going to be okay. I promise you."

But Louis didn't listen to Harry's voice. He was too busy figuring out what was going on in his own mind. Just then, it was like an instant reaction to what he was trying to do. He lurched forward off of Liam and crawled over to where all the pills were spread out.

"LOUIS! NO!" Niall yelled as he stepped in front of Louis. Louis started crying even more. Louis just sat there. On the floor, surrounded by his band mates. He felt uneasy. It was like the world swayed back n forth. Louis collapsed onto the ground. His head was spinning rapidly.

"LOUIS? YOU OKAY?" Yelled Harry.

"I-I-I...."

"You, what?"

"I quit."

[Okay in my defense, yes I agree this chapter was a bit short and all but that's only because the next one is really going to excite you. So get ready directioners. Get ready for a very special surprise!! ;)]