Cafe - Hwitae

2018

This is not a real chapter so feel free to skip this. There won't be a chapter tomorrow because I'll be editing and possibly getting my NCT Dream album so pray for me and a Jisung photocard.

But that's not what this is about. 

2018 is here!! I hope that this year will treat us all well. We've all been through a lot in 2017 and I would like to take a minute to reflect on my year personally. Perhaps some of this I shouldn't be sharing or something like that, but I'm just going to write and share. Sorry if things get too personal.

My self image has improved drastically. I've always been a little heavy, but I've also been on the shorter end. I've grown quite a bit which has also helped me slim down. While there are still times when I look in the mirror and see things I can change, it's happening significantly less. I also feel less of a need to push myself to not eat. This has benefited be surprisingly a lot. I'm more cautious with portions which helps me see that I don't have to starve myself in order to lose weight or simply feel good. 

I've found great friends. While they can be dicks at times I can be a dick to them. It's kind of our thing and we know when we take it too far. We help each other through hard times. I can share anything with my friends and I hope they know they can share anything with me. I can't imagine what I would be without them and their support. Babes, I hope we can spend more days at the mall or at one of our houses. It doesn't matter as long as we are together.

As stupid as this sounds, Kpop really has changed who and how I am. While it has taken over my life, I have things to look forward to. I find myself with goals like getting a job to help fund tickets, or watch JAEMIN RETURN TO NCT DREAM I'M SORRY IM A SALTY HOE. A little over a year ago, I didn't have goals or aspirations. Sure I've had regrettable times like staying up until 4 am reading fanfictions, I've had wonderful times like getting my first album (both YNWA versions bless BTS even though some of the fanbase is... ya know). 

Now some personal things I would like to achieve.

Goals for 2018:
-Get rid of that toxic friend or at least confront them
-Get that job and make your own money 
-Balance your time better
-Improve your relationship with your family
-Support your faves while prioritizing yourself and your health
-See EXO???

Thank you guys if you read this. Thank you if you didn't but still read this book. Time for me to repeat stuff I've said over and over and I'm certain it's getting really annoying.

Knowing there are people reading this is incredible. Especially seeing that it's people from all over the world. Thank you for the votes and comments. It really does make me happy and want to write more when I read all of your comments. I'm so... well saying proud makes me sound kinda full of myself, but I really am. I can't say thank you enough. I'm sorry I don't respond to all of the comments. Usually I'm like... overwhelmed. Not with like stress but shock and happiness. I'm not the best with words lmao

Am I so extra I published this at midnight. Of course. It's officially 2018, lovelies. Let's make it count.

~~Peachy~~