"Hello Christopher! You looking for my son?" Rakim's mom asks as I stand outside her house. I nod and divert my eyes down to my shoes. "If he doesn't mind me coming in..." I trail off and she kisses her teeth. "Just come in, he's upstairs with Robyn." She says and I feel my heart pound in my chest. I still felt awkward around her after what we did. Nodding once more I step into the house as she steps aside. I kick my shoes off and sit them neatly by the door before looking up at her. "Thank you." I thank her and she smiles before I begin my way upstairs. I procrastinate getting up them, taking my time and staring at my feet as I do so. Once I finally reach his door I take a deep breath before raising a fist to knock on it. The sound of Robyn's giggle dies down before footsteps come towards the door. It pulls open and I'm faced with a smiling Rakim. The smile doesn't last long, instead drops into a frown before he looks me over. "Yes?" He asks and I clear my throat. "I um... I came to apologize for the way I've been acting." I say softly and he sucks his bottom lip into his mouth. A hand wraps around his chocolate arm before Robyn's face comes peeking from behind him. Our eyes find one another's before we quickly look away, both of us blushing. "I appreciate that..." He finally voices and I look up at him. A smile spreads across his lips before he steps to the side. "Tryna hang?" He asks and I chuckle before nodding. The two of them disappear back into the room, me following behind them. Rakim tells me to close the door and I do as commanded.
I wipe my sweaty palms on my jeans before standing awkwardly in the middle of the floor as the two of them get comfortable on the bed. I take a slow lick of my lips before gazing over at Robyn's figure that sat quietly, her hands tucked between her legs that were placed under her.
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Her green eyes meet mine for the second time and we share an intense share. After our talk in the bathroom I made myself distant from her. I didn't know how to feel about our night together and I still don't. She blinks slowly before her cheeks flush a light pink and she looks away. "What're you doing Chris?" Rakim laughs when he sees me still standing in the middle of his floor. "Come over here, trying to act all shy like you don't know us." He adds a chuckle before going back to searching for a movie. I shuffle over to the bed and Robyn scoots back further, allowing me to rest my body at the end of the bed. "Hey Robz..." I say softly and she fiddles with her fingers. "Hi Chris." She gives me a little smile before pushing her curls behind her ear. I give her a smile back and move closer to her. "We haven't talked in a while..." I trail off and she nods before sucking her bottom lip into her mouth. "I guess that's on me though..." I laugh lightly and she gives me another smile before turning her attention to the T.V when a movie suddenly starts playing. "Lilo and Stitch sound good?" Rakim asks before getting comfortable next to Robyn. I rest myself between her legs; she stiffens for a few seconds before relaxing. Time slowly passes and we all find ourselves passing around a blunt.
"Damn I'm so high..." Rakim laughs causing one to fall from me also. My eyes close as Robyn's fingers work at my curls, turning them into two braids. Her playing in my hair right now fells amazing and I'm about two seconds from falling asleep. "I'll be back, I'm gonna go pee." He says before hopping from the bed and disappears into the bathroom connected to his room. Robyn's hands finish in my hair causing me to open my eyes. I look up at her to find her already staring at me. I smile, her releasing one also and I turn in her lap. Once I'm hovering over her she smirks and brings her hands up to cup my cheeks. "I've found myself in this position before." She says, her voice sultry and seducing. I mock her smirk before lowering my face to be closer to hers. "Why'd we fall off these past couple weeks?" I question softly as my lips graze her heart shaped ones. "Ask yourself that Mr. I Don't Answer My Phone." She wraps her legs around my waist, pulling me down further. A deep chuckle leaves my lips before I capture her own with mine slowly. "I was scared..." I finally admit after our kiss. She furrows her brows before running her thumb over my bottom lip. "Of what?" She whispers and I lick my lips. Before I can answer, the bathroom door opens and I quickly pull away. He raises his brows at us and I scratch the back of my neck nervously. "Hm..." He hums to himself before coming over to the bed and sitting down. "So one of y'all gonna tell me what the fuck that was?" He laughs as he eyes both of us. "We were play fighting." Robyn quickly comes up with a lie.
"Play fighting..." He lets out another laugh before leaning back against his pillow. His hands cup behind his head and he continues to analyze us. "You two had sex... y'all fucked." He nods his head like he's just solved a big mystery. My face instantly reddens and I look away from both of them. "Rakim!" Robyn squeals and he laughs at her. "You can see it all over y'all faces! The way you two were acting when you first seen each other. Man... how was it?" He asks, a large smile on his face as he turns onto his stomach. "I... uh... I... We-we were high and- fuck." I curse under my breath and begin to stand from the bed. "Where you going Chris?" He asks suddenly and stands with me. "Don't be embarrassed! I had a feeling you two had a lil sum for each other. We're all friends, don't feel uncomfortable about this." He says as he grabs my arm to stop me. I wanted to face the two of them but I felt exposed, I couldn't do it. "Yo Chris you good?" He asks and tears rush to my eyes. I hated this. "Chris it's okay..." He says but I shake my head and hurry out of the door. "Yo... what the fuck is happening?" I hear him ask as I disappear down the hallway.
My feet stomp against the stairs as I hurry down them. I see Rakim's mom peak her head from the kitchen but before she can say anything to me, my shoes are on and I'm out the door. I quickly hop in my car and start it up and pull off before anyone can chase behind me. My hands wipe the tears rolling down my face away as I cruise down the highway. I'm tired of my emotions getting the best of me, I'm tired of being confused, and I'm tired of feeling made fun of. I shake my head, trying to force myself to get out of my feelings but I can't. I wish I could control myself but I can't and I found myself turning to unspeakable things to get ignore what I really feel. My hands work to dig into my glove compartment and I pull out the pack of cigarettes I had stashed in there. I light one up before bringing my shaky hands go to my lips. I inhale the tobacco and let it fill up my lungs. As the sun goes down I find myself just driving around and thinking to myself. I pull over to the side of the road and shut my car off. Sighing softly I climb to the back of my car and lay myself down. I stare up at the roof of the car until I feel my eyes get heavy. My eyes close slowly and I place my hands on my chest. "I need help." I laugh to myself before allowing myself to fall asleep.
