Suicide Note

Chapter Nineteen

Christopher...

My eyes watch as the football team begins to clear from the locker room. One by one they exit out the door, leaving Tremaine alone. My jaw clenches and I push myself away from the lockers to make my way over to him.
"Why?" I ask and he looks up, surprised to see me.
"Why what?" He chuckles and I growl before gripping the collar of his shirt. I roughly push him up against the lockers and he grunts as his back makes contact.
"Why the fuck did you do that to my car?!" I scream at him and he just stares at me for a moment. "Do you enjoy just fucking with me?" I grit and he scans my face with his chocolate eyes.
"You left me hanging Chris." He finally says and I furrow my brows.
"What? How?" I laugh bitterly and he places his hands on my chest before pushing me back a bit.
"I had you first! Then here comes Robyn and then Rakim..." He trails off and I slowly release his shirt.
"Don't you dare blame this on me... you only wanted sex remember?" I ask, my eyebrow arched.
"That was before... you knew I was feeling you Chris." He says and begins to walk closer to me. I shake my head and him and frown.
"No I didn't know. But what I did know was that there was someone like Rocky who wanted me for me. He didn't want a fuck buddy after school, he wanted me." I say and he licks his lips before looking down.
"I'm sorry..." He says softly and I shake my head at him.
"No you're not. All the shit you've done was intentional. You did things because-" my voice is cut off by him grabbing my face. He smashes his lips into my own and I stand shocked.

Once I register what's going on I quickly push him away.
"What the fuck is wrong with you?!" I ask and he begins to smirk. His eyes travel behind me and my heart begins to beat against my chest. Turning around my eyes meet Rakims. He stands there with his gym clothes hooked under his arm and a straight face. "Rocky..." I trail off and he shakes his head before turning away.
"You gonna run after him Chrissy?" Trey says with a fake pout and I glare at him.
"Fuck you." I spit before heading out of the locker room. Rocky has already made his way halfway down the empty hallway so I begin to run after him. "Rocky!" I call out and he just keeps walking. Once I catch up to him I grasp his arm and turn him around. "Rocky please... he kissed me!" I explain and he huffs before pushing my hands off of him.
"I don't care about that Chris! I seen what happened and I also heard everything." My heart sinks and I struggle to find something to say. "When were you going to tell me that you two had sex?" He asks and I lick my lips before shrugging my shoulders.
"I don't know Rocky... I didn't think it was that important. He was just a fling, what happened between us only happened once." I say and he stares at me for a moment before sighing.
"You know... the thought of you with someone else kills me. I can't handle the fact that someone else has had you the way I had you." He says softly and I grab his hand.
"But no one else has! What happened between us was special... nobody can make me feel the way you do." I voice honestly, my hands now gripping his face.

Rocky bites into his bottom lip before he sighs.
"Trust me Rocky... I'm only worried about you. You're all I fucking think about when we're not together. And that may not be healthy but shit... that's the way it is baby." I continue and he smiles a bit before leaning forward, placing his forehead on mine.
"I love you. And I'm mad I can't stay mad at you." He mumbles before gripping my waist.
"I love you." I chuckle and we share a quick kiss before someone clears their throat behind us.
"Sorry to break up you two love bugs but I'm about to lock up the building." Someone says and we turn to see the janitor.
"Okay, thanks George." Rocky says and George nods his head at us. "I gotta stop at my locker real quick." He says to me and I follow behind him as he begins to walk off. I stand silently next to him once he reaches it and watch him pull out his things.
"All set?" I ask softly once he's closed his locker back and he nods before holding his hand out to me. I grasp it and he leads us out of the double doors.
"Can I drive babe?" Rocky asks, his voice low and he bats his lashes at me. Nodding I chuckle and pull my keys from my jacket before handing them to him. He cheeses wildly and releases my hand and practically runs over to the car. After unlocking the doors I pull the passenger side open before sliding myself in. Rocky begins to get settled in the front seat before someone walks past the car. He perks up and before I can stop him he's back out the vehicle.