Suicide Note

Chapter Eighteen

Christopher...

  "I'll see you later, Ight?" Rocky asks as he holds my waist. I nod and he places a quick kiss on my lips. "Meet me in the foyer when the last bell rings." He mumbles before turning to walk away. I smile before biting into my bottom lip and head towards my study hall.
"Aw... look at that boys... Rakim and Chris all in love." I hear someone say as I pass a group of boys. I look over and my eyes instantly meet Trey's. Chuckling I shake my head and continue on my way. "Fucking faggot." He laughs and I stop in the middle of the hallway and turn around.
"You know what Trey, suck my dick. Oh shit I forgot... you already did." I smile and his face instantly drops. His face goes red as his friends begin laughing and questioning him. He pushes them away from him before ducking into the boys bathroom. Shrugging my shoulder I turn and continue my path to class. I arrive and walk through the open door. Robyn catches my eye and she motions me back to sit with her. Smiling, I make my way past the rows of students and sit in an empty seat beside her.
"Hey Chrissy." She smiles and I chuckle as I set my backpack beside me.
"Hey Robz... how was your weekend?" I ask as I turn to face her.
"It was good... what about you?" She asks, wiggling her eyebrows at me.
"Why are you looking at me like that?" I laugh and she gives me the look.
"Oh come on Chris! It's pretty obvious." She says as she scoots closer to me.
"What?" I ask and she rolls her eyes dramatically.
"You and Rakim... you know..." She arches a brow and I blush looking away from her.

"How would you know?" I ask in a whisper and she punches my shoulder lightly.
"Y'all been all lovey dovey since you two came in together. More than usual." She says and I shake my head.
"My weekend was great thank you." I finally answer her question and she squeals while clapping her hands together.
"So how was it? Were you bottom or top?" She asks lowly, eager to know all the details. I blush harder and she giggles and shifts in her seat uneasily.
"Robyn..." I call out, giving her a side eye with a small smile on my face. "Do we have to have this conversation right here?" I ask and she kisses her teeth.
"Um yes! Know tell me." She hits my shoulder once more and I playfully glare at her.
"Okay, okay..." I begin in a whisper. "It was so... amazing. He was so gentle and loving; he was on top... but next time I wanna switch things up." I mumble and look around and make sure no ones listening. My eyes travel back over to Robyn and I have her full blown attention.
"So is it like... better than sex with a girl or what?" She shoots another question and I shrug.
"I guess I enjoyed sex with Rocky better... but that's probably because we actually have a deeper connection than just a sexual attraction to one another." I say and she nods her head, curls bouncing.
"That's true... anyways! I'm so happy for you guys, you're literally the cutest fucking couple in the school." She says before pulling a piece of gum from her pocket. She unwraps it from its silver packaging and pops it into her mouth. "I can't wait until I find the one. The boys in this school are all a no... guess I'll have to wait until I get to college." She says before laying her head on her desk.

Halfway through the class period, the door opens and Trey walks in. He meets my eyes before glaring and making his way to an empty seat.
"Is there any reason why you're this late Tremaine?" The teacher asks and he rolls his eyes as he plops into his seat.
"I had to talk to a teacher and I forgot to ask for a pass. Didn't think I'd need it just to come to study hall." He spits back before shoving his headphones in his ears.
"Who pissed in this nigga's Cheerios?" Robyn asks, her face scrunching up in disgust at him. I laugh, shake my head and turn back to my phone. "What are you and Rakim doing after school? I miss hanging with you two big heads." She asks and I set my phone down on the desk.
"We're going to go to that diner around the corner, grab something to eat and then head over to my house to relax, watch a few movies maybe. You can join, you know you're always welcome." I say and she blushes and gives me a bat of her lashes.
"Awe I feel so loved! Of course I'll come and hang out. You two meeting in the foyer after school?" She asks and I nod.
"Yeah, we'll be there." I say and she nods.
"Sounds like a plan then. Don't make me some third wheel though now that you two are all in love and shit." She warns, pointing an acrylic at me. I laugh and lean my head on her shoulder.
"Oh never Robz." I smirk and she giggles once more before grabbing her phone. She snaps a quick picture of us and puts it back down.