The Adventures of a Girl Who Should Not Exist (Doctor Who/ Harry Potter Crossover)

Chapter Nineteen: Failure

Chapter Nineteen: Failure

The sun was setting on my first day of school at Hogwarts.

At dinner, Eleanor had asked what I had been dreading- why wasn't my magic working?

That had crushed my temporary euphoria from doing so well in Potions, and I had fallen sullen and moody since then.

Now I was sitting, cross- legged on my bed, staring out at the turrets of the castle, stained pink in the fading light.

Why?

Why was my magic so weak?

Why was I here at all?

Were my feet still planted firmly on Gallifrey?

I was a failure.

Life had been happy, and all was well. Then the Daleks came and I fled. Failed. Only saved myself. As my home planet winked out of the sky.

Failure.

I grew happy on Earth- or as happy as someone who felt personally responsible for the deaths of their closest friends could be- and along came the letter.

I bumbled in here, hoping it could be better. Hoping it could give me Gallifrey again. And I'd failed.

A failure.

A single tear slunk down my cheek.

A/N: Dark much? Sorry. I really wanted to drive my point home.

Amelia's depressed cuz her family and friends died. ;_; oh yeah, it doesn't help that last week my Grandpappy died...

It's okay- I'll live! Seriously! Life will be happy again- this whole "hit by a bus and/or Dementor" feeling will pass. We've seen it coming for a while now, but you never really know the meaning of the saying, "You never truly miss something until it's gone" until it happens to you... :-(

On that happy note, good night!

Wuv, Me

(Seriously, I'm trying to keep this as light as possible but I needed to get it out there! :> So don't kill me for the lengthy gap in update time- I also had end of year tests and whatever. Last thing- don't kill me for making the author's note longer than the chapter. Oh well, I can tell you the next chapter will be less depressing :p)