My 2018 Diary

1/10/18

Dan and Shay just released a new single today! I love their music. Oh man my legs are killing me. I swear you do more walking lifting at work then people do in a gym. Work has been going well can't really complain. The semester is about to start up and I'm not looking forward to going back to my second job. It's not awful but not nearly as good as this job.

Zach is planning on coming down this weekend. I'm not sure how I feel about it. On the one hand I'm glad to be out of the house doing fun things on the other I have to be with him. We do lots of cool things together like wine tasting, ice skating, and book shopping. I like to do all of these things but with him... I feel like things have been even more tense recently. It could be because he's been hanging out with a bunch of people. The other day he wanted to play truth or dare I was like ugh really. Well he choose dare and I told him to text someone something pretty generic (I really didn't want to play) and he ended up texting a GIRL. A girl he use to like. I got pissed I'm like really you have all these people in your phone and you text her?!?

So yeah I also don't want him to come down because I've been doing really well staying under my calories and he like to eat. So I'm sure I'll be way over every day and I don't want to fuck this up. He doesn't support me on this though so I'm not sure what I can really do. On Saturday we are planning to go to a hockey game after I get off work which means we have to get food somewhere (probably the game). Everything there has a million calories in it! Sigh the struggle.