My 2018 Diary

1/23/18

     So things have been going better recently. I was really happy because when I stoped to get gas I was got a snack. There was a sale going on 2 for 10 on beef jerky! So I saved like $7. I love beef jerky so much. Now the sad part...

     I got home and let in the dogs and noticed my mothers dog Ginger wasn't there. Apparently they are putting her down. She's had problems for a while and the past couple days have been really bad. I honestly don't associate much with Ginger but knowing she's going to die makes me sad. This situation reminds me of my old dog Princess. Her and Ginger were half sisters. Princess died a couple years ago. It wasn't pretty. She was in pain for so long and even though I knew it was the humane thing to do I couldn't put her down. I had so much hope that she would get better. Sometimes I hate myself for not doing it but I just couldn't kill my baby. Maybe I'm a horrible person but I just don't think I could put any of my dogs down... they are all probably going to die in pain. Maybe that's wrong but we let people suffer with pain until the naturally die so how is this any different?