My 2018 Diary

5/2/18

     I know it has been months since I have written. My life has been kind of monotonous. Today was the last day of school and I am so excited but very stressed. I only have 2 more finals but my German final will kill me. Speaking of German I will be on a plane headed that way in only 26 days!!! I'm getting so excited. I also put my 2 weeks in at Starbucks. Working there has been alright but I will be quite glad to only have one job from now on.

So I decided to start seeing a therapist again. Today was my first day with Natalie. I am excited to go again I know I could use the help to get my life back on track. We will see if I continue to write in here but I figured that it would be a good way to think about what we talked about and help process things. Our main conversation was about my mother today. I feel so much anger and hatred toward her because I don't like the person she has become. I hate the fact that she just wastes her life away. There is so much negativity in my house all I want is to escape it. Anyways.... Natalie seems nice I was a little nervous talking to a woman because I usually prefer interacting with men. I think we will work well together. For anyone reading this and are considering counseling I highly recommend going. I am a little lost in my current ways and I hope that i will have hope for a better future soon but these things take time.

Oh p.s. I got more plants :) I just hope I don't kill them like the last ones...