Wishing I was 23

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Beatrice POV

Okay, so three months past and it's almost summer. It's also Rachel and I's aniversary.

One problem, from the very beginning of our relationship, she was hurt. She told me the truth and I knew that I needed to break with her so her fantasy could become true.

In all honesty, I do think they make a good couple. But what's bothering Rachel is Lauren not replying or calling her back when she texts or try to reach out to her ever since her birthday.

I love Rachel with all my heart but I know that I never had loved her more than a friend. The day she kissed me was tooken by surprise. I kissed her or give little pecks cuz' I could tell Rachel was hurting knowing Lauren was with Ty.

What kills me is I try all my power to make her smile but she can't stop thinking about Lauren. I should break this up.

I know she loves me but deep down she loves Lauren more. If anything I could tell Lauren had a crush on her too.

It's currently the 3rd of June and I'm in Rachel's room, cuddling her. I saw her notebooks and they were all sad songs but one stood out. Wishin I was 23.

I read it and for sure it was about Lauren. I put the book back and lay up on the headboard with Rachel on my chest.

I made a quick note that I would leave for a while and places it beside her bed. Then, there was a message from Chris, Rachel's brother.

Gf's Bro😒: Hey Beatrice, I found something. I found that you still have some family left. Your parents were in a car crash but you're siblings survived. You have an older sister and a step-brother. They are living in San Francisco with your aunt. She's the one that took care of you till you were eight. Her name is Mary Young. If you want to find out more, call me or text me back💙
Sister's Gf😊: I'm on my way to your house. I want to know more

I quickly changed and left the Lynch's house. I bought the next flight to New York and went yo visit Rachel's brother.
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Your POV(Rachel)

I yawned and realized that Beatrice was missing. I move my arms around her side and found a note.

Dear Blachel,

I'm sorry I didn't wake up next to you today. I would love to kiss you. I'm so sorry to do this by letter but we need to break. Don't worry about me, I'm with your brother. He's helping me find my family and has been doing that before we reunited. I'm really sorry Rachel but I knew that something was wrong with you. I know that you have been distancing yourself from everyone. I knew you since we were kids Rach, You can never hide your feelings from me. I know that you love Lauren way more than you do to me. Don't blame yourself because it's none of our faults but I we will still be friends even when it's awkward or whatnot. You are my first of first in everything except in bed and I would never forget that. No one can replace you, Rach. These three months were amazing to me and I thank you that but what we have can never be anything more than just friends, Rachel. I always known that I love you but we both know that we never loved each other more than just a friend and we both know that deep down you love Lauren way more than you do to me. Please, just get pass this love stage cuz' I want us to be friends, Rachel. If I ever find my family, they can nevee replace you. What I want you to do now is to go get your girl. We both know she loves you too. Contact Ally and Dinah, they know all about Lauren and from what they have told me is that she is not doing well. Mila is trying to reach her but for some reason, Lauren's parents didn't allow her to go in. She's in Maimi, Rach. Go to Ryland and ask your parents to go there. Live there if you will. Bring the twins and Faith too because they need you. You saved them and I can never any proud of what you've became of yourself. I'm sorry again for breaking us up using a letter. I'm not good with this so, I did it old fassion way. I love you, Rachel Lynch, forever and always.