Wishing I was 23

The Video Clips II

I clicked on the next video clip and saw her with her most brightest smile I've seen and it made me smile too.

"Hello to the people that are watching this. I'm whispering because my girlfriend is sleeping behind me as you can see", she moved aside and I saw myself hugging the white tiger she had won for me before we dated and she got me when when we met.

"Anyways, today was amazing. I love every moment of it. I took Lauren to my spot on the beach and had an amazing time with the picnic, the sunset, the moon, the waves, her mind is extraordinary and out of this world, her love for Lana Del Ray and The 1975 is skeptical but I still love her. I didn't know what so special about them at first but when she explained to me why they are incredible, I finally get why and I just think that her perspective in life is amazing. I sang her a song from a recent musical that I've watched with my ukelele and it seemed that she loved it. I also cooked her a meal that I've learned from Ryland and Riker. That wasn't the most amazing part yet, through the night, the most amazing experience has happened to me. I lost my actual virginity to her. I couldn't love her less at all. I know it's been only three months since I've known her but I definitely know she's the one and when I finish school or what not, you'll be forever mine Lauren Jauregui. I love you till infinite", she finishes off and smiled to the camera while waving goodbye.

I let a tear fall on my cheek and wiped it off. I couldn't believe that she cared for me for so long and I let her be angry. I pushed too far and should have stopped questioning her past.

"I'm so fucking stupid at times", I mumbled to myself. I felt a hand on my shoulder and looked to see Sarah awake.

"You're not, Laur. Trust me, I've been in your shoes. Remember the first time she was in the hospital? That was partially my fault", she said softly.

"No, it wasn't. Rachel was being stubborn and could have just listened to us but she chose not too", I argued but she looked at me a little guilty about the situation. Then, a sudden feeling got me guilty as well.

"I get it now", I looked to my feet but she sat next to me and smiled while. Rubbing my back. "Let's watch the next videos together,alright?", she suggested and I nod.

She clicked on the next video and the date that was stated there was my birthday. The Video had a picture of a smiling Rachel.

"Hey guys, it's our anniversary or was our anniversary. Its been four months since we met. It was supposedly special today. It couldn't be any better. Before I start what happened today, I'll tell you what has been going on with me. Honestly, I'm on cloud nine. We just started the tour and we're back home. We took a short break and there was an accident that happened. Soda and Lucas got into an argument and I had to make peace but there was on twitch. They pushed Lauren down the stairs and we had to rush her to the hospital. I was so furious yet worried about her. The doctor told us that she just had a scratch on her head and wrist and so they stitched it up. Lauren convinced me that it was her fault for stepping in but I was still a little mad at both of them. Lauren and I sleep it off but I didn't let it go. The next morning, Riker came to take my place while I talk to everyone and calm them down. Ryland drove me back home and I started with Soda. Ally gave me two pills and two chocolate bars for Soda and me. I went to his room to a mess. His blankets were in the floor and his drum scores were everywhere. I shook him to wake him up. Fast forward, he told me his story and I tackled him. My next victim was Lucas. Fast even more forward, we talked and I told him to try and control his anger. Both Soda and Lucas are hothead. They get triggered easily. After Lucas, Sarah came into mind. I saw her being miserable because chocolate wrappers were everywhere. What's exciting about our conversation was we formed a band together. SHRL HEROES. I know it's a lame name but I just hope we get to be what I aspired us to be. I went to Faith next cuz' I knew she'd be scared about this situation. We talked and she told me that she was afraid to make Lucas as mad as that again. She didn't know what to do but I helped her out. I'm going to get straight to the point because I'm starting to be sleepy and Lauren is currently kicking me behind. After I've talked to all of them, I went back downstairs and I saw my brothers all up as well as the girls in the kitchen. They said I was a peacekeeper but I didn't believe it much. I hated being called a hero but I learned to except it.

Anyways, The day started off weird when I woke up to an empty bed and gagging noises in the bathroom. I went there and Lauren was down on her knees, puking in the toilet bowl. I got worried and helped her with her hair. I soothed her back and once she had finished throwing up, I gave her a towel to wipe her mouth. I was really getting worried but she told me that Dinah and Camila have been taking care of her so, there's no need for me to worry. I shrugged it off and texted Ryland to cook breakfast for Lauren and I told him what's been going on about her. I was really worried but she shook it off. Lauren went straight downstairs after DJ and Camila took her and I went to shower. I came down for breakfast and the atmosphere was tense. It was pretty quiet than usual but I ignored it. Moving on, other than our anniversary, we have our first day of tour and I loved every single part of it. The crowd was wild and Sarah and I enjoyed ourselves a lot", she starts to go one about how she got the whole crowd to dance and bounce on beat.

"But there was also a downside but I wouldn't call it that. It was definitely a surprise but it was a blessing at the same time. Before Fifth Harmony got to perform, Lauren was missing and as I went to find her, she was in the bathroom, looking light headed. She then clasped on me and i got really worried. I called my siblings and we rushed to the hospital while Fifth Harmony was still performing. When the doctor was done inspecting Lauren, he told us that they are fine and I was confused at the moment but as he explained further, I became shock. He told me that Lauren was having twins. Like I said, it was such a blessing but also it worried me a lot. I started to think about the future and what it meant for Lauren and I. I know that I'm definitely keeping the twins and though it will be hectic but I promised myself tat I could make it work. Lauren and I started to talk about it and I told her about keeping the twins and the future. I am so, so lucky to have her as my girlfriend and maybe soon to be Fiancé. I don't know when to propose but when the time is right, I will do it. And Lauren, if you're watching this, I love you and I hope you know that", she ends off with a blowing a kiss to the camera.

I felt my tears streaming down and wiped it quickly. "I love you too, Rachel", I kissed Rachel's cold hands as Sarah soothed my back.

"She'll wake up, Lauren. I know it", Sarah encouraged me and I smiled sadly to her. My eyes were becoming heavy and I started to yawn. "You should sleep, Laur. You can't stay up forever", Sarah said and I nod at her.

I layed down next on the flip bed while Sarah took the coach. I kissed Rachel's head once more before drifting off to sleep.

Please wake up for me, Rachel. I miss you.