Midnight Tears

dear heartbreaker

 you cut through me like a knife
it hurts so bad but i can't resist the feeling
i have become so numb, so dead inside that the feelings you give me are the only ones i feel at all
i am addicted to your poison

you break my bones and push me down

but i will crawl back to you

i will come back with desire desire for your nails digging into my skin,desire for your hands to snap my bones,
desire for your tongue to suffocate me

i am addicted to the pain

you push me down and bruise my knees, 

i will apologize even though i have done nothing wrong

i breathe in your toxicity as if it is the air i've been deprived of
your toxic air fills my lungs with flowers
and while they are beautiful i find it difficult to breathe

tough love is better than no love at all

as your tongue wiggles it's way down my throat i will cough up blood as a thank you


your hands wrap around my heart and squeeze 

they squeeze like a snake trapping it's prey
but that's what i was to you
my heart shatters into millions of pieces

i will pick up every piece 

you push me away,
throw me into the grey

i will wait for you

for an enternity

and once you come back you will try to break my heart again to no avail

dear heartbreaker,you cannot break a heart that's already broken