Dreamer. [joshler]

sixteen. Nothing

I couldn't sleep at all last night, it was impossible. I stayed up just thinking, my mind racing, I was confused. I still am! Josh slept just fine on the couch, slept late too. I got up and made him breakfast when he did wake up. He seemed to be perfectly fine, as if nothing happened last night.

"You okay?" His voice startled me out of my thought.

"Hm? Oh I'm fine." I smile nervously, he gave me a suspicious look.

"You sure? You seem a little...antsy." I hadn't noticed my hands fidgeting until I saw him look at them.

"Oh it's nothing, really." He gave me a weird look before turning back to his phone.

"So I was thinking-"

"Yeah?" I cut him off, he looked at me weird again before turning away.

"We should go out and buy that camera you've been saving up for." I froze and my eyes went wide.

Josh looked at me when I didn't speak.

"Um y-yeah that's a great idea."

I hastily got up with him and grabbed the keys for him. But when I held them out he wouldn't take them, I kept asking him why and he just stared at them. It startled me when he clasped both his hands over mine, that's when I realized my hands were trembling. He gave me a worried look.

"Tyler are you okay?" He voice seemed distant.

"M'f-fine," I couldn't hear myself, my voice was muffled.

"Are you sure? Ty you're trembling-" I couldn't breathe, it felt like there was a weight on my chest.

I felt a force and arms wrapped around me tightly, that's when sheer panic set in. I writhed and backed away, tripping. I saw Josh reach for me but the edges of my vision were blurry and black. I struggled for air and before I knew it everything went dark. Just pure darkness and silence.

-

I opened my eyes, I was in my bedroom. I was wrapped up in my blanket and had a cool cloth against my forehead. I gently reached up and touched it, sending a wave of pain throughout my skull. I winced and made a small sound of pain. My vision was a little blurry and my entire body ached, what the hell happened? Suddenly my door slowly opened and in walked Josh with a bowl and a bottle of water. He looked down at me almost shocked.

"Oh you're awake." His voice was loud in my ears and sent another wave of pain, I winced.

"Oh, sorry." He whispered.

I sighed and nuzzled my face into my pillow, snuggling under the blanket.

"Here's some soup if you're hungry and a bottle of water if you're thirsty." I watched as he set the items down on my nightstand.

"That was a pretty rough panic attack you had, glad you're better." So that's what happened.

"But look what I went out and got you," I watched as he picked up a nice new camera-the nice new camera.

I immediately gasped and sat up, reaching for it. Pain shot through my head and I quietly yelped.

"No no no." He spoke as he placed a hand on my chest and pushed me back down.

"You're in no condition right now, maybe later." He smiled, I attempted to smile back.

He reached down and removed the cloth from my forehead, brushing damp curls away briskly. Gently he leaned down and placed a light kiss atop my forehead, lingering afterwards. I felt an annoying blush creep up on my cheeks, he laughed lightly at me before turning away.

"Get some rest." And he walked out, shutting the door behind him.

Why was I so flustered by a simple little action? If I'm correct he's done it before. What is happening to me?

-

I had fallen asleep after that encounter, waking up later on when Josh came in to take a shower. There was only one bathroom with a shower and it was connected to my bedroom. That's why it had startled me when I walked into my room to grab something and found Josh holding a towel around his waist digging through his clothes. It was very awkward and I think I scared him. Now I'm sitting on the couch staring at a random cooking show. That's when Josh showed up and sat right next to me.

"Wanna watch a movie?" My face lit up with joy, I bounced eagerly.

"Can we watch Bugs Life?"

"Another kids movie?" He seemed unsure, my face fell.

"Well if you don't want-" he cut me off.

"It's perfectly fine." I looked up at him, his voice was gentle.

He smiled softly and put the disc in the player. I grabbed a blanket and wrapped it around both our shoulders, snuggling into his side.

-

-Josh-

The movie was really boring and I didn't pay any mind to it, but I enjoyed spending time with Tyler. He really enjoyed it so that made me happy too. By the time the movie was over Tyler had both arms wrapped around mine and had fallen asleep against my shoulder. He was adorable when he slept, like a little puppy. The moment was so peaceful that I didn't want to disturb him but I really had to pee. I carefully tried removing my arm from his grasp but he groaned annoyingly.

"Don't go," he mumbled, I felt bad.

"I don't want to but I really have to pee." He sighed and let go of my arm.

I hastily got up and rushed to the bathroom. When I came back Tyler was rubbing his eyes tiredly.

"Can you hold me?" His voice was tiny and I couldn't help but awe.

"Of course," why wouldn't I?

I sat down next to him and pulled him into my lap, he wrapped his arms around me and I wrapped mine around him comfortingly. Gently I raked my fingers through his chocolate curls, he hummed happily, bliss.