Dreamer. [joshler]

nineteen. Mistake

-Tyler-

It's been three months, I still love him just as much as I did-well-three months ago! I love being able to kiss him whenever I want, I love being able to hold his hand in public. Everything's just better with Josh, nothing like when I was with Ian. I'm much much happier, and healthier.

It was getting a little late and Josh still wasn't back from work, I wondered what was taking him so long. My question was answered when I heard the door unlock.

"Alright I'll see you tomorrow-" I quickly rushed over towards Josh to see who he was talking to but he closed the door before I could see anything.

"Who were you talking to?" I stood on my tip toes looking over his shoulder at the door.

"Oh just an old friend, Spencer, he's really great. I'll introduce you to him sometime." I smiled weakly and nodded, just an old friend.

Cant be anything worse than that.

-

Today was really a beautiful day, the sun was so bright and the air was warm. Josh had taken me on a stroll in the park and I was absolutely loving it. That was until Josh stopped and let go of my hand, walking over to someone.

"Spencer!"

A tall skinny guy turned around and greeted Josh cheerfully. He had blonde curly hair, it made me play with my own hair self consciously.

"Josh! Hey dude, how's it goin'?" His voice was smooth.

"It's fine, I'd like you meet Tyler." He wrapped an arm around my waist and pulled me to his side, I nearly tripped.

"Hey Ty-guy, Josh's told me a lot about you." I looked up at him, his dark green eyes stabbed right through mine like he was trying to send a message.

"What can I say he's my prized possession." Josh grinned proudly, I felt my face start to turn red.

I watched as Spencer looked me up and down intently, my face turned a darker shade of red. I shuffled around on my feet nervously.

"I'd be proud to have something that nice too." He grinned at me and Josh but I just looked down, trying to avoid eye contact.

"Well it was nice meeting ya'!" I nodded briskly.

"H-have a nice day," and with that I grabbed Josh's hand and dragged him away quickly, I don't know why I felt so nervous.

There's something about that guy that just put me at edge, I didn't like him so far.

-

It's been weeks, Josh was hanging out with Spencer a lot. I mean it's okay but I really miss spending time with him. He also came over a lot and always ate all our food and used up the electricity. Spencer was also really touchy, but not to Josh. He stares at me a lot and just makes me uncomfortable in general, I'm too afraid to tell Josh about it because I don't want to interfere with his friendships. Spencer is like a brother to Josh and I don't want to ruin that. Spencer really scares me.

"Oh gosh, I think I'm gonna go make something for lunch." Spencer got up from the couch and stretched, walking off into the kitchen.

"Ty, why don't you go help him?" I restrained myself from looking at him fearfully and nodded, going into the kitchen.

"Um, d-do you need help with anything?" He turned quickly and grinned at me almost innocently, I almost felt safe.

"Yes, I do actually." I cautiously walked over next to him.

"Can you cut these for me?" I looked down at the cutting board he slid my way, it had a few carrots on it.

I swallowed thickly and stared at them for a minute, I could feel his eyes staring daggers through me. I reached a hand out and grabbed a knife. I held it above the carrot but my hand was so shaky, I just couldn't keep it still. It got worse when I felt his body press up against mine and he wrapped his arms around mine to steady them. I was trapped I couldn't do anything. He helped me to cut up the carrots but when I was done he didn't move away. He began to wrap his arms around my waist and I could feel his breath on the back of my neck, I was growing even more uncomfortable. I quickly pulled away and turned to face him, face burning bright red.

"Is there a-anything else I can h-help with?" His eyes flashed so many emotions that they were practically unreadable.

"Oh there's a lot you could help with," he spoke, stepping forward.

I backed away into the counter knocking a bowl over, it clashed against the floor.

"Tyler get off of me!" Before I could figure out what was going on Spencer swooped up and grabbed my arms, planting his lips over mine.

He turned so he was against the counter and it looked like I was the one kissing him, I froze. I didn't know what to do and right when I came back to my senses Josh walked in, I was shoved back. I stumbled back an extra few feet, staring at Spencer wide eyed and shaking my head. I looked over at Josh, he looked upset. Spencer looked upset too but I knew it was fake. I just kept looking back and forth between them, stuttering. Finally I gave up and ran past Josh, tears pricking my eyes. I locked myself in the bathroom crawling into a corner and pulling my knees to my chest.

A few minutes later I heard a knock on the door.

"Tyler, love, please unlock the door." I hugged my knees tighter.

"Ty..." there were a few seconds of silence then some rattling and the lock popped, Josh walked in slowly.

"Hey," he gently crouched down in front of me and placed a hand on my shoulder, I looked up at him through teary eyes.

"Can you tell me what happened?" My eyes went wide, I didn't know whether to tell the truth or not.

"It's okay, you don't have to lie. Did he make you do that? Did he make you kiss him?" I couldn't tell the truth, that would ruin their friendship!

"No, I-I k-kissed him." I tried not to sound fake.

I watched as Josh's face fell, hurt and anger in his eyes.

"Tyler-please tell me you're kidding!" The tears were flowing, I shook my head reluctantly.

This hurt me so much but I didn't want to interfere with Josh's social life. His face fell again and he stood up, backing away.

"Okay, uh I just-I just need some air." He string his hands through his hair and walked out, I shoved my face in my knees and sobbed.

Everything just hurt.