Dreamer. [joshler]

twentythree. A Promise

Tyler and I have been dating for a year now, he's gotten way more comfortable and I haven't heard anything from Spencer since then. Tyler will sleep in the bed now but he still is afraid of the dark, I have to go with him everywhere. I feel so bad, it scares him so much. He says he gets flashbacks and he feels like somethings watching him, like Spencer did. The poor boy was traumatized, it's sick. That didn't stop me from loving him though, with all my heart.

God, I loved him so damn much. I don't think he really understands, he means everything to me. He's my entire world and I'd hate to lose him, it would kill me. I really couldn't take it, I wanted to call him mine-forever. I've been putting a lot of thought into it, I want to get him a special ring. I wanted to give it to him in a special way, I just didn't know how to make him go somewhere without me. He clings to me like a scared child and I cant ever leave his side, it's sad.

"Thank you Josh," I looked down at the beauty next to me.

"For what?"

"For everything." My heart melted when he wrapped his dainty arms around me and hugged me tightly.

"Anything and everything for you love." And I wasn't lying.

"I wanna do something today." He spoke as he pulled away, I grabbed his dainty hand and stopped him from turning around.

"Actually, I was thinking maybe you could enjoy some alone time." His eyes went so wide, I could see his chest start to rise and fall faster.

I gently grabbed his other hand and tried to comfort him.

"Hey, it's okay you'll be okay. You need to start being a little more independent too, and I can't bring you along this time. It's very important." He nodded weakly, frowning.

Oh god it killed me so much to see him like this, but I could not bring him along no matter what. This is supposed to be a surprise, I'm giving him something he'll never want to take off. I made sure Tyler was comfortable all cozied up on the couch watching one of his little movies before I quietly left. I sped down the road to the jewelers and got the ring, I didn't know why I was so rushed. But then I remember how I didn't want to leave Tyler alone for long.

-Tyler-

I was starting to get a little too paranoid when I finally heard the door open, and in walked Josh. I jumped up and ran to him, hugging his waist tightly. I missed him to be honest, he wasn't even gone that long.

"Hey, come on we gotta go." I looked up at him confused.

"Come on, I got a surprise." My face lit up with joy and I dragged him out to the car, he helped me in and started the engine.

We sped down the road towards the edge of the city, it seemed familiar.

"Where are we going?" I turned to Josh, he didn't speak though.

I noticed we were at the same little area we were that one time, when we went on a "date". I watched as Josh got out of the car and opened my door, grabbing my hand and gently helping me out. I kept giving him quizzical looks, he looked a little anxious. Finally we stopped, it was so pretty. Little white flowers littered the ground, the sun was about to set too. Josh set down carefully and pulled me with him, tangling his fingers with mine, I gently laid my head against his shoulder. We sat there quietly for a while and watched the sunset, Josh finally broke the silence.

"Remember the first time I brought you here?" I remembered everything, a lot was going through my mind at the time.

"And you cried by my side." He wrapped an arm warmly around my waist, I smiled at the gesture.

"Yeah,"

"Remember the first time you came to my apartment, and you cried in my arms?" How could I not?

"Remember how I was always there when you needed me, when you were scared?" My breath hitched, there was only one time he wasn't.

"Remember when you came home drunk and we danced?" He chuckled, I laughed softly.

He gently got up and pulled me with him, pulling me around and swinging my arms. I giggled at him as we danced around. He spun me around into his arms, planting a soft kiss to my lips. I gently reached a hand up to his face, after a moment he pulled away and stood me up straight, wrapping his arms around my waist.

"I love you, I really do." I frowned, that didn't sound like it was heading in a good direction.

"I'm sorry I didn't mea-let me rephrase that." I laughed quietly at his clumsiness.

"I love you, a lot-sorry that just sounds stupid." He shook his head but I laughed again, grabbing his face softly.

"It's okay," He looked at me reassuringly, taking a deep breath.

"I love you, you mean everything to me. It hurts me to see you sad, you light up my world. You're the only thing that makes me happy, I never want to lose you. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have you in my life, if you ever left. I don't even think I would be alive. You are the only thing I care about, I hope you feel the same way. I promise to love you forever. I just, I want-I w–" he was starting to stutter and lose his words.

"What are trying to say?" I looked up at him curiously.

"I'm trying to say-"

He gently grabbed one on my hands and held it, pulling something out from his pocket and placing it in mine. I never saw what it was though, I grabbed it to see even though he still had it covered by his hand. It felt like-like a box–

"I want you forever." He slowly opened the box to reveal a ring, my heart stopped beating instantly.

"W-" I didn't even let him finish.

I jumped up and grabbed his face sealing my lips over his, he stumbled back and grabbed my legs so I wouldn't fall. Tears of pure joy brimmed my eyelids and eventually spilled over.

"Um, is th-that a yes?" I laughed through the tears and nodded, watching as his face lit up with joy.

My hands were shaking as they skimmed around his features, I planted little kisses around his face before hugging him tightly. When I pulled away to look at him again he too had a few tears running down his face. I smiled weakly and brushed them away with my thumbs, he set me down on my feet and gave me a bear hug.

"I'm so happy, I was s-so worried you'd say no!" He laughed.

When we finally finished hugging he pulled the ring out again and tried to put it on my finger. It was nearly impossible though, his hands and my hands were both shaking so much. Eventually we got the ring on, I couldn't believe this just happened. This by far was the best day of my life.

Now I can't wait to spend the rest of these days with him, the one person I love the most.

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