Amputee at heart.

Chapter 6

Mina, Jess, and I spent a few hours playing cards, games, and getting to know eachother. It was a blast, these two girls were strong, they faced what came at them and for once they wern't the type who said 'it a good thing, this gave me the oportunity to become the person I've always wanted to be, this is the best thing ever!' For that I was thankful. This accident was NOT the best thing to happen to me, because of this my whole life fell apart. I was much happier moping around that my ex-boyfriend was gone, my brother and sister were at college, I was the reject of the family, my dad left and my Mum and I never had a stong connection. I had learned over the past few months to deal with that...and now, I had to face every single one of them without a left arm.

In the middle of a round of "cheat" there was a knock at my door, my gaze raised from the deck of cards and up to the door. Standing in the door frame was my mother, she leaned against the wall, ams crossed, her brown hair was curly and tucked behind her ear. "Mom...?" was all I could get out, my voice cracking mid word. I suppose Jess and Mina scenced this was a rough topic, Jess stood up and started to push Mina "We've got to go get some ummm...kleenex...yeah emotional day and all. Be back soon," Jess made up to words as she manouvered the wheelchair, she mouthed a quick "Goodluck, be nice" in my direction. I replied with an eyebrow raise.
"May I come in?" my Mom asked unfolding her arms and returing to the upright position. I nodded my head in response. She came in and sat where Jess had been just moments before.
"How are you?" she asked trying to start the conversation.

"Fine. How are you?" you could litteraly see the venom coming from my mouth, this woman acted like nothing had happened the day before.

"I'm much better! I'm being released tomrrow." (KEEP IN MIND SKYLER WAS IN A COMA FOR A FEW WEEKS GIVING TIME FOR HER MOTHER TO HEAL)

"Really?" I was almost exited, if she was okay then I would be two, I then compared the injuries. I few fractured bones, concussion, and some cuts to a coma and an amputation. My hope was gone. "Are you going back home?" I quizzed refefring to the house we lived in together.
She paused for a moment, "No not exactly...This whole thing has been quite stressful so I' m heading to Mexico for two weeks to help me recover. I'm still quite sore.That fractured arm was terrible! I've never felt so much pain!" She rubbed her shoulder.

"Are you serious!" I was beyond angry, I was furious, I was pissed. "You call your situation stressful and complain about how you're sore? I was in coma for weeks, I lost my left arm! That's what i'd call stressful! I'd say I'm sore but because of these inguries I'm so medicated I can't even tell! I'm all alone right now and I need there to be a mother with me. I want it to be you, but if it can't becuase for some reason you think you are more important than me then by all means leave Hope and Josh will take care of me just like they always have. While you were wallowing in self pitty becuase dad left and I was a dissapointment to you, Josh, Hope and I were trying to keep eachother together. They raised me more than you ever did and they taught me how to be a good person, while you tought me how to be selfish, angry, bitter and how to hold a damn good grudge. You never forgave us for messing up your relationship with dad, but really it was going to happen anyways, you were always phycotic. I always hated that you made Hope cry, she would go into her room and muffle the cries but I could still hear them. I hated that you made Josh grow up faster than he had to. I hate that you never cared about me and that you made me feel worthless. But most of all I hated you because you never told us why, and you never seeked help." I finished my rant breathless. I just got out everything I've ever wanted to say to her. She looked taken back at first, then angry, then sad. I waited for her to say something but she never did. "See you in two weeks," She walked out, broken and depressed. As she walked out she picked up a note that was on the door and walked it back to me. I nodded in a thanks then watched as she left yet again. "I heard a pretty heated discussion, we decided to leave you two alone. Hope everything is okay. Sorry we had to leave. Call us, maybe hang out tomorrow? -Mina" I made a mental note to call her later and placed the paper on the table behind me.

I sat in the silent room. I had just yelled at my mother, I had just told her everything I wanted to and more. Feelings I didnt know I had came wondering out. I thought back on the words i had said earlier that day...Josh. I yelled at him for being to fatherly. But he raised me, I am who I am because of my brother, he gave up everything to take care of me. He became a man at too young of an age. For that i was thankful. I picked up the phone and dialed his number, careful not to drop the phone.

"Hello?" his voice sounded tired and strained.

"Josh?" I began tearing up as if I didn't think he'd answer, like he wouldn't care anymore.

"Sky..? Hush," he soothed as a cried into the phone.

"Josh, I'm so sorry! I need you, and I'm really scared and I don't know what to do!"

"It's all okay, I'll be there in a few, hang tight."

"Im so sorry.."

"I know Sky, it's okay. we'll talk when I get there." With that Josh hung up. I placed the phone down on it's cradel behind the chair. I grabbed the Giraffe and began picking at the fluff that was attached to the plush exterior. I cried, just like that. I had people who were willing to give so much up for me, and all I could do was dissapoint and push away. How was I ever going to get throgh this?

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The reads of here have been incredible! But would it be rude if I asked for  few votes and comments? I hope not! It would mean the world to me. I'm kinda in a rough month right now, both in school and personal life so i'll try to post as much as possible!  Thanks again to Mina and Jess :)

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