Amputee at heart.

Chapter 10

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Hope walked right past me, avoiding eye contact and standing right in front of Josh and enveloping him in a big hug, her chin on his shoulder. He hugged back giving me a confused look over Hope's shoulder. She pulled back sitting in the chair next to Josh's, crossing her legs and folding her arms across her chest.

"Josh, could Skylar and I have a moment alone?" He nodded reluctantly, pushing himself up off the chair. he gave my shoulder a quick squeeze and closed the door on the way out.

"Hey, how are you doing..." I started but I my voice started to quiet down when i saw her facial expression. Her face was cold and stone like, she gave me the hardest stare I've ever seen, they cut through me like daggers. "What?"

"What! seriously that's all you have to say? You selfish brat! This is all your fault! You couldn't take one minute to think about anyone but your self. You've gone way to far this time, you killed someone! That someone was my mother, she was yours too, but you never seemed to think that. You ruined Josh's life! And you ruined mine! Now you've got nobody, I hope your happy." She looked like she was about to hit me, but she controlled her actions and got up shoving me on the way. The door slammed behind her.

I perched on the edge of the bed pulling my knees to my chin. Did I do that, did I ruin their life? Kill my mother? I caused this family so much misery, I've ruined and torn it apart once, could it have happened again? My mother sent the letter to me, to me only. Did she even say goodbye to Josh and Hope?

Josh came back through the door and sat next to me, to be honest, Hope yelling at me, blaming me hurt more than anything else. I felt like I was losing my carefree, airy sister. I was beginning to feel more and more alone in this world. Josh wraped his arm around my shoulder pulling me into his chest. "She blames me. She blames me for everything. I caused Mom's death and we all know it, now I've lost my sister. and you know what? that hurts more than her death, my injury, my accident. That hurts so much more. Josh, I dodn't think she is going to forgive me on this one, she told me I ruined her life. That Mom would still be alive if it wasn't for me. Josh, I killed someone..." For the first time since I discovered my Mother's death I cried, letting tear after tear fall down onto my face, wetting Josh's gray shirt. All he did was rub my side and kiss the top of my head, whispering soft shh's once in a while.

"You know none of that is true? Grief makes people say strange things, Hope is trying to find someone to blame. She doesn't want to believe that Mom just killed herself, she want's to believe that someone pushed her to the brink of suicide. In no way was the suicide your fault, she was unhappy for many years, trying to grab ahold of life again, but she ended up just hurting us when she tried. Hope always thought that our Mother was doing what was best for us. In the 6 years before you were born, when it was just Hope, Mom, Dad, and me her and Mom were so close, they were best friends, when Dad left and Mom became depressed it tore Hope in two, she tried so hard to keep it together and bring her back. She just blames you because you were the one of the last things to happen before Hope lost Mom. She's just looking for someone to blame other than herself."

"So you don't think I caused this?" I looked up to meet Josh's eyes, the blue glistened with fresh tears.

"There is no chance," he used his free thumb to wipe away a few stray tears before smiling, "We've got this Sky. We're gonna make it out of this." He put both arms around me pulling me in for a tight hug and kissing my forehead. "We always have"

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We sat in that hug for quite a while before we both pulled back. "The police called me earlier, they want me to go and do some paper work and identify the body. If i want to be there in time I have to go now." He starts to stand up shrugging on his jacket which had been hanging from the end of the bed. It wasn't fair that Josh had to do all of this.

"I'm comming with you...." I said standing up. I hadn't left the hospital since the accident, I guess i never had a reason.

"Can you do that...?" Josh questioned

"I've been to rehabilitation, I'm regaining my strength and there is no way I'm letting you do this alone."

"Alrighty then, if you're dressed and stuff I suppose we just go sign a slip of paper for the day..."

I nodded following Josh out of the room gently shutting the door behind me. We were greeted at the front desk by a short woman whose name tag read 'Janice'. "Hi, my yonger sister, has been here for a while and I was wondering if I could take her out for the day?"

The woman smiled but shook her head, "I'm sorry but I can't let her go, the doctor would have to sign a waver but most of all have a good reason at this point in her recovery." My heart sank.

"But we do have a good reason! Our mother commited suicide and they want us to come in to do some paper work and identify the body. I am the legal guardian of Skyler now. Is that good enough?" Josh crossed his arms, you could tell he hated using the misfortune to get what he wanted. Janice swallowed.

"Of course, here are the papers. Just please be careful and bring her back for dinner time." She handed the papers to Josh, as he filled them out I looked at my watch. It was 2 O'clock now, dinner was at 6:30, I had four and a half hours out of this hospital.
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