.''I hate you, I love you''.

-30-

Lauren's pov:

"put that bat down and let's talk about this" I said.

"I will not listen to a bitch like you!"

I took a step backwards, the bat passing just a hair away from my nose, it hit I'm sure it would have broken it for sure.

"I didn't do anything!" I yelled at her.

"liar liar liar!" I covered my head because she was way too close to think of anything more but I never felt the pain.

"you shouldn't go around assuming things about me" I opened my eyes again, Ashira had caught the bat in her hand and Belle seemed to have a heck of difficulty to try to pull the bat away from her as Ashira didn't budge.

"go away cheater! I hate your bitchass fa--" "shut up!" Ashira barked, her alpha side showing and making everyone shut up and Belle stop trying to pull the bat away.

"if you would have listened to me back then maybe you'd have known the real reason I broke up you! I don't feel like myself! I'm a crude imitation with a broken mind! I saw my friends and brother in arms die in front of me.... the world is dull and worthless in my eyes and I should have broken up with you when I came home but I didn't have the heart too! seeing how happy you were but it only felt like I was using you, my love had gone away with the death of those man...... I didn't cheat.... I'd never fall that low.... I simply feel nothing but despair and emptiness.... you telling me to go kill myself didn't help at all! get out of my life now and leave Lauren alone, she has nothing to do with it!" Ashira pushed on that to shove her back and walk away, outside, the only sounds being her boots hitting the ground before even those went away.

"you know" I said in the heavy silence, staring at Belle who got shoved to the floor by the push "you know how I feel about her and all, you did come to yell at me after she left but I would never make her cheat or even try to get with her just to fuck with you, you have no idea how she feels when it's visible in her eyes and even told her to kill herself...." I couldn't continue, not having the right words, I simply turned away and walked outside, searching for Ashira, she was right.... all this was a stupid idea from my part.

I send a message to Dash since her mother's decided to give me his number in case they weren't around when needed like right now, Ashira told me they went somewhere.

-I'll bring Ashira to your home when I found her- Lauren-

I sent it and continued to look around, she had left the school ground.

"I'm bet she's in there" I said to myself as I walked towards the bar in the town, people wanting to feel better and forget their problems usually drank so I'm basing my hypotheses of where she's gone on too on that.

I sighed when I opened the door, the smell was so strong even for a vampire like me, I can't imagine what a wolf could smell with their better sense of smell.

I walked to the bar and sat next to Ashira without a word, seams my assumption was right.

"a martini please" I said as the bartender asked.

"you know.... I don't understand how you can support the smell" I said to Ashira who's head was laying on her left arm with a beer jug in her other hand.

"you get used to it" she answered.

"yeah I know, it was a stupid question anyway"

"why are you here?"

"looking after you" I said as I got my cocktail "I can't let you do this, it will not help you, alcohol just borrows happiness from tomorrow"

"and?"

"please Ashira, it will do you nothing good, you'll only feel worst afterwards"

"...... just this jug" I smiled a little as she huffed, she must be slightly drunk already to agree this easily or maybe she understands my point of view.... I'll assume it's the first option.

she downed her beer with a bit flowing down her face, I also quickly finished mine but much more cleanly.

"you have something on your face" I chuckled as I took a napkin and wiped the beer of her face, yeah she must be a bit drunk already. "come on let's go" I pulled her after me by her hand.... you know I don't feel ready to deal with a drunk Ashira and I feel it's going to be a pain in the ass to take her to her house.... oh heck.

-she's drunk, I'll bring her to my apart and bring her back when she's up-

I sent the sms while I speed walked towards my home, it was way closer then hers and I sure as heck don't want to deal with what she could do.

she let me pull her all the way to my house, like if she was asleep.

"jeez you" I muttered, pushing her towards my bedroom, she didn't even give an answer before crashing on it.

I sighed and shook my head, closing the door and laying across the couch, turning on the TV and watching something interesting.

damn this day is all over the place.