.''I hate you, I love you''.

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(this story will come to an end soon, may be in the next chapter..... no it will most likely happen.... any way.... enjoy while it lasts, I still need to write a book for the generation I skipped and maybe even for Ashira's own children)

Ashira's pov:

a year.... a year since everything....

I still find myself hastily running out when I catch a glimpse of a small blue light in the dark from my window, running out of the house and trying to follow it.... please don't go.

though I can never catch them, it is always gone when I get to the edge of the forest, no light coming from nowhere, it was driving me nuts.

Jake got himself a girlfriend, Kathrine, a nice woman who is nice with children.... they are expecting a child in 3 months.

Dash? he.... is strangely placed right now, is it even possible to have multiple mates? is it? or is he just mate with one and hopelessly in love with the other? I wouldn't want to have two girls from which I have to choose one.

mom and mama are still their old self.... though some times were dark because my great grandma finally joined her mate in the afterlife... rest in peace great grandma.

Flash was really sad for a while, she loved her but Kelly was there to cheer her up, I'm more than 110% sure they WILL be mates when she's old enough

Eszter and Michelle....... I don't even.... I'll just tell you to never let them sleep over.... ever.... and I regret meeting Athena, their daughter a third of the triplets.... she's exactly like her mother's if you get what I mean by that.... don't let her sleep over with Thalia or it will be.... really uncomfortable.... everyone agreed to never let them in the house again, none of those 4 girls can, I don't care they are goddesses, out of my house you sex demons! out!

.... so where was I before I got of rails? oh yeah.

now about Lauren and me.... how do I say this? we are.... engaged for a few months now.... we actually somehow asked on the same day.... do I have a plan that I will soon put to work~...? I hope it works.

I was still not the alpha or queen of werewolves but that's for tonight, yep you heard me right my plan is to take place now, my family know of it since they helped me prepare it, I just hope it works.... let's hope....

"hey Lauren" I called her with a huge smile on my face, you could say I was 'cured' of my depressive behaviour, I still have bad days but Lauren can easily cheer me up and you remember how when we Blackblood's become wolves we have a male body? and that Lauren can become a wolf? come on I'm sure you guess what's going on already!... so in 8 months, 1 week and 3 days we're going to have our own little pup! I fainted at the news and was out half of the day before waking up, remembering and fainting again for the rest of the day.... I was shocked okay? but at least I'm older then my mama when I will have a kid of my own, she was still freaking in school when we were born with Dash.

"hey love what's up?"

"ready for tonight?"

"well are you sure I should wear a dress? it's you take the title"

"but you too since you are my mate and yes wear that dress, tradition"

"then I'm far from ready and I hate you"

"hate you too" I chuckled.

"you stupid mutt" she laughed.

"you're talking Lamp leach"

"okay let's stop, I need to get ready"

"alright, see you then"

"bye love you"