Undo

Chapter 41

PAGE NUMBER 1!

Greetings! Greetings! It is I, the one and only Kim Taehyung, also known as V from BTS. And I made this notebook for a very special girl. Yes! That's you!

PAGE NUMBER 2!

This page will contain everything I love about you, y/n. Oh wait- that's impossible, I can't write everything, I might even need another notebook. Hehe~ I'll list down my top 10 ^^

1. You are very beautiful

2. You are very nice

3. Your smile brightens up my day- I mean my life

4. You're just so cute and I can't help but smile

5. You're an ARMY

6. Hearing you laugh makes me feel so complete

7. Your lips. I could kiss them all day, IF I could

8. You're perfect

9. You honestly make me forget about anything around me when I'm with you

10. I love seeing you happy, I just love you too much okay?

PAGE NUMBER 3!

Remember when you delivered my order back there at the park? It was the very first time I saw you. I could tell that you were surprised, but I'm sure that I'm more shocked than you are.

Remember when I took our first picture together? I took it inside the taxi while we're heading to the amusement park. I still have it, and I'll put it inside a frame once I come back to Korea. By the way, you look so cute in the picture, I'll keep and protect that memory forever.

Remember when we were inside the museum? You even took a photo of me! I really love going to places I like with you, y/n. I'm gonna post that picture you took on twitter, soon.

Remember when I video called my mom? She told me that you look very pretty and asked me if you were my girlfriend. I told her no. I also kissed you that day, ahh~ I actually felt embarrassed after that.

Remember when it was raining and we couldn't go anywhere? We were just locked inside the hotel room. I also remember when you repeatedly said sorry to me. I don't know the exact reason why, but I hope you're okay now. Just keep in mind that I won't ever be mad at you.

It's also that day when we called my hyungs. And Jungkook, of course. You looked so happy when you saw him. Honestly, I felt sad, but somehow, I also felt happy. I just want you to have everything you want in life, y/n. I'll support and respect your decision, no matter what.

Remember when I gave you a piggy back ride? And when we watched the Lion King together? You don't know how happy I am that day. Being with you is seriously the most awesome thing I ever experienced. It's so sad to think that I'll leave you.

Now, do you remember when I said my goodbye to you? Sorry.. It's just.. I don't think I could stand the pain anymore. I've had enough, I'm so stupid, y/n. Kim Taehyung is stupid. Why am I such a coward in the first place? Love myself? More like, hate myself.

Remember that I love you so much, y/n.

PAGE NUMBER 4!

I, Kim Taehyung, never knew that I'd fall in love with an ARMY. Especially with a girl I just saw online, my fan, our fan. I see your comments everytime, and it made me curious.

Will something change if I had the courage to talk to you? Well, I guess we'll end up together, or not. Probably not though, because you and Jungkook are both meant for each other. I'm just another character, in your very own love story.

Ah, Kim Taehyung. What would other ARMYs do if they knew all about this? If they knew that I'm so in love with a fan, and that fan doesn't love me back, because that fan likes another member. They'd probably laugh out loud and tell me how stupid and dumb I am.

Everyone tells me that I could have anything I want in life. They tell me that I'm handsome, popular, rich, a great singer, a great dancer, nice, cute, precious, and other things. They told me that I could get a beautiful and sexy girlfriend any time I wanted. But I never wanted that. What would they do if they knew about Kim Taehyung chasing a girl who doesn't love him back?

But even though you don't love me the way I want you to, I still love you very much. I'd honestly sacrifice my whole life to you, y/n. I don't know the exact reason why I'm so in love with you, but I'm not complaining.

PAGE NUMBER 5!

The next pages are filled with our pictures together, I printed them out and compiled them here. So this will be the last page, last letters, and last notes.

Y/n, I want you to know that I love you. I've probably said it a lot of times now but I want you to remember that everytime you see me. You'll always be in my mind, I'll always remember our memories, I'll always perform nicely on stage because I know that you're watching, I'll always stay happy because that's what you want. I'll do anything to make you happy.

I'm sure after all of this, you'll be happy with Jungkook. He's a very nice guy. He might look a little arrogant but he's actually loving and caring. I'm giving you to Jungkook because I know that he could make you happier, make you smile, and make your life complete. Although it's hard and painful, I'll accept it, whatever makes you happy, y/n.

I love you so much. Please always take care of yourself and know that Kim Taehyung will always be here for you, okay? You could text, and call me anytime you want. If you need a friend or someone to talk to, I'll be there. When you're feeling lonely, remember that you could always talk to me, I'll try my best to cheer you up. You can always count on me, y/n.

It hurts, but I have to accept it.

If only I could undo everything.

But I can't.

That's why I'm letting you go.

I wish you the best in life, y/n.

Forever yours,
Kim Taehyung