When Light Meets Dark - A Reylo Romance

Lost

"Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell."

~Edna St. Vincent Millay

Kylo

I'm standing in the middle of the clearing where Rey and I used to train. I've been there for a while now, pacing up and down and running my fingers through my hair. How could I have let this happen? Snoke must've come for her while we were asleep, but how could I not have sensed him? I was more angry with myself than with Snoke. He must've been watching us somehow, or maybe he read my thoughts. He must've realised that there was no way I was going to turn her over to him when our training was complete. I wouldn't let her become like me. I fell to my knees and buried my face in my hands. Then I let out a frustrated scream that echoed through the air as birds scattered in every direction.

After a while I stood up and began to make my way back to the outpost. Maybe I'd find some clue there as to where Snoke had taken her. When I got there I headed straight for her room. There were no signs of a struggle, and everything was more or less how she'd left it. Her brown satchel lay on the floor empty and her clothes were folded in a neat pile on a table in the corner. Her shawl was still on her bed, along with a couple of black hairbands. I picked up the shawl, holding it delicately in my two hands as if it might fall and break. Then I clutched it to my chest and closed my eyes. Almost automatically, images of her began to fill my mind. I let them.

I saw her standing in front of me, clutching her lightsaber as we trained. I couldn't help but admire the grace with which her body moved, and it had distracted me in one too many fights. Everything about her just seemed so...perfect, and sometimes she'd catch me staring at her and blush.

I knew that I shouldn't be thinking of her in that way, but it was almost impossible not to. She was undoubtedly the most beautiful and pure and special thing that had ever walked into my life. I'd never felt like this way about anyone before, feelings so strong that I'd give up anything just to see her smile. I'd opened up to her because somewhere in her I saw a piece of myself, somewhere in all her loneliness and confusion. I felt this overwhelming need to shield her from the world, so that she'd never feel hurt or lonely again. Sometimes when we were standing close to each other all I could think about were her lips. I wanted to kiss her so badly but I couldn't. I couldn't let her know how much I wanted her, because that would only scare her away.

Now, Snoke had her. I knew he wouldn't kill her but that wouldn't stop him from doing other terrible things to her. I don't know what I'd do with myself if something happened to her.

I dropped her shawl on her bed and went back outside to clear my head. The sun was already high in the sky warming moist air that surrounded me. I needed to get out of here. 

After a long walk I arrived at the spot where I'd landed my ship many weeks ago.  Shifting intrusive vines out of my path I entered and began powering up the systems. But where would I go first? Surely Snoke wouldn't have hidden her on Coruscant and if he had she was well guarded, not that that would be a problem for me. He would want to keep her close so that he could observe her. You'd think as Snoke's apprentice of so many years I'd know some of his hiding places by now. But it was as if he had vanished into thin air. I slammed my fists down on the control panel in frustration.

Then, over the intercom, I heard the broken sound of a droid's voice. I must've been  intercepting a transmission. After turning a few dials I managed to strengthen the signal and listened intently.

Commander. The fleet is in position. Do we engage?

No. Not until Snoke gives the order. And besides, we have delicate cargo onboard.

Hux. It had been ages since I'd heard his voice and it still sounded as malevolent as ever. Were they preparing for battle? But I couldn't concern myself with that, I had to find Rey, and it sounded like she was somewhere onboard Hux's fleet. Clearly Snoke didn't trust me anymore.
As of that moment, I was an outlaw of The First Order.

Yes Commander.

As the signal cut off I started up the engines, honing in on the coordinates I had gotten from the communication.
Looks like it was time to pay Hux a visit.