Steven Universe Fanfic: The Spy (Rubapphire)

I'm A Person

Let's start with a casual, "Hello"

I don't think I would really consider myself 'normal'.
But, let's be honest.
I don't think most of us would consider ourselves normal considering what the definition of 'normal' is in humanity.

I'm just going to get this out of the way before I say anything else:
Thank you guys so much. You guys mean so much to me. You bring the positivity I'm not able to create in my own head.

Now, let's talk deep shit.
Like I said before, I'm not normal.
I suffer from depression.

"Oh yeah, boo hoo so do I" you might be thinking.

I'm not here to make you feel sorry for me. I'm here to tell you that I relate if you are dark-minded like I am.

I'm a deep thinker. Sometimes I think a little too much.
I've come to terms with myself that I'm going to be completely honest with you all and admit the things I only tell certain people that I know in real life.

My thoughts have been scrambled, and I'm in the point of my life where I'm so confused that I can't even remember who I am.

I'm glad that I can make others happy through my stories, though.

Speaking of which, I bet you guys are wondering how I came up with this story.
-mumbles- probably not but whatever I'll tell you anyway...

Honestly, I have no idea.
I've always been a fan of fictional torture.
Not in the gorey bloody way.
Mental torture. Probably because I'm so used to the concept every day.
Used to being mentally tortured.
My favorite part when I write is that I can have people notice when the characters are struggling.
That's the funny thing.
The most fictional thing about my fanfiction is that people notice when you're in pain.
They notice when you're hurting and you don't even have to confront them.

I prefer to have the characters I can either relate to more or characters that I can put myself into their perspective to be hurt.
I like to see the other character in the relationship who isn't hurt mourn them, or try to help their love in any way possible.
Twisted, I know. But I can't help myself.

Maybe the reason my plots are as some of you say 'the best' is because I bring out the darker more heart-wrenching scenarios.

Oddly enough, all of my plots are very similar to each other, just different things happen. The base idea of what will happen is the same, however.

Having characters become evil is also a thing with me. When I was a kid, I always loved the evil villains. I loved imagining I was the villain's kid.
Being able to do whatever you want and still be safe from the villain's wrath.

...

Anyways...

I started writing when I was
(wait for it)

-deep breath-

In kindergarten
Unbelievable, I know

I started writing technically three times.

In kindergarten, I made this little booklet with poorly-drawn animals.
All I did was write the names of the animals underneath. I couldn't remember half of the names and I probably spelled them wrong.

The next year (first grade) I made this weird scroll-like story. About three paragraphs about who-knows-what.
There was this scheduled 'reading time' thing, and I was proud of myself (which was rare for me even at that age) and I kept rereading my gibberish.
So my teacher got annoyed when I didn't read a 'real' book.
I started putting it away, and rolling up that 'scroll' was hard af for little me. I was rolling it up and my teacher shouted at me again.