It truly amazes me.
How much I have forgotten,
since you've entered my life.
Never once did I feel unwanted.
Never once did I feel unneeded.
Never once did I feel that the world didn't need me.
Never once did I feel uncared about.
Never once did I feel like I was being used.
You made me forget how much I hated myself
However, today, the day you're claiming that you're leaving,
My demons didn't hesitate to attack.
They were fasting for too long.
They're tearing me apart.
You gave up on me.
I'll go back to hating myself.
I haven't looked into a mirror today.
I know I'm ugly. why remind myself.
My demons are taking over, and I will not ask for help,
I will not give in.
I will not be saved.
I will not be the same person.
Maybe on the outside I look the same, but on this inside my darkness is too dark, but thank you for letting me forget what this felt like since you entered my life.
Nothing can stop my demons now, not even myself. The last words I'll say to you,
Thank you for letting me in as much as you did.
Thank you for letting me attempt to help you when you needed it,
Thank you for letting me be the true me.
Thank you for not judging me,
Thank you for not giving up on me at the beginning,
Thank you for all that you've done for me.
If you take anything out of this, I really do hope you know,
I love you.
I care about you.
I'm sorry I cannot be the one for you.
I'm always here for you, no matter what.
If you want to scream your head off, scream directly in my ear.
Goodbye me
