He Was My Junior

CHAPTER 16:WHERE ARE YOU NOW?

"May I speak to him for few seconds?" I requested the receptionist.
"No mam, I am really sorry, there has been a strict order from higher authority to not let you in", the receptionist said.
Guess what? It's Rahul's office, yes, I said it right! I know what you are thinking, it can never happen to me , but it happened, I can't enter his office!? confused ? Me too!
"Look, there must have been some mistake, there is something wrong, Rahul's dad won't do like this ", I said.
" No mam, I am very clearly instructed to not let you speak to him",the receptionist said.
"Said? Said by whom? Are you even aware who am I? If you know then why are you still not letting me to speak to him",I screamed at her.
My anger reached its peak, who the hell is she to stop me from my boyfriend's office?
"I know who you are, but please don't create new sense here or else I should call the security , please don't make me do it",the receptionist said.
"What are you even saying? Did you lose your mind? I hired you people, dont forget that",I said.
"Yes mam, I owe you for that but as a employee I have to listen to them",she said.
"Listen to who? Who gave you this non sense orders",I asked.
"I am sorry to say mam but the orders came from Rahul sir",she said.
I froze...I froze for sometime , I couldn't move my body, my brain became idle, it was a hard hit on me , I felt like there is a intense pain all over my body , i became breathless, I feel dehydrated, what happened to me ? I am seeing things but cannot grasp the hold of situation, I cannot understand what's going on around me, what did I just heard? Was it even possible?
"Mam....mam....are you okay?", the receptionist asked.
I came back to my senses now.
"Haan...yeah..I..am okay ",I said.
I came out of the building right then, I am trying to contact Rahul from the day he left India, how could he even do that? He won't respond to me , he won't call me back , he won't even answer to me for a second, what had happened to him? Is he my Rahul? The one who loves me more than anything in this world? Does it even possible ? Why is he avoiding me? Did something happened to him? I am really worried! Yes , he can never avoid me ,I think something had happen to him, may be some accident, what might have happened to him?
No no no, nothing will happen to him, he is cheating on me, yeah he is cheating on me! That means all those promises? How can he lie all those? No way! What am i even thinking? May be I can cheat but he couldn't ! Something had happened to him but they are not telling me anything.
It has been 4 days since he left India!
I tried all of his contacts but he isn't answering my phone , what did i do? May be his dad's playing some tricks? I don't know.
Even my dad tried to contact but no use, I started crying now, I cannot tolerate all this, it's killing me from inside, it's like someone's squeezing my heart from inside.
"Do you know the address of his mansion in new york?",my dad asked.
"Yes dad I know ",I said.
"Then get ready to aboard the flight tomorrow, I will adjust the money", he said.
"But dad he has to respond to me atleast, what will i do there alone?",I asked.
"I will also come with you ", he said.
I couldn't say anything for his love and concern about me , all those love Rahul has shown to me seemed so less infront of my dad, that's what true love is, I thought.
I went and hugged him, tears were Rolling down my cheeks.
"Don't cry my dear, we will find him, don't worry", he said.
I started packing my stuff , as I was packing I got a message alert.
My phone screen showed it as '1 unread voice message',
I wondered who would send a voice message in India or ...oh my god, it may be Rahul!!! Yes, yes , finally he spoke something, thank God he is alive , I became so happy by seeing his messags, I opened it.
"Hey, it's me Rahul, I know you are upset on me but I am sorry to say that I couldn't marry you, if you try to contact me or do anything stupid then you will lose me as a friend too".
I doubted it, for the first time I felt I am not awake, it's all little dream, when I wake up Rahul would be at my side.
But no, it was happening for real, Rahul really ditched me. Is it even possible? How could he do that? And just like that? Without even saying a word directly he just sent a voice message? My throat started burning, tears just rolled down from my eyes, dad seemed surprised, he didn't know what voice message I heard.
I didn't know what to do now? I just went inside my room and started crying. The emotions took control over me now. I was not in a position to decide anything or do anything. I had a brain fag. All I was thinking is Rahul, only Rahul. I opened my phone and texted in WhatsApp, " why do you do this to me?, Please talk to me, please come back, I can't live without you".
The message was seen by him, he didn't reply. What? He didn't reply for my text? Why? Am I that much worthless now! No, it can't be happening. Why me? Oh god, please do something, first time in my life I prayed to god, please listen to my prayers , please, I beg you, I need rahul, I can't live without him. God seemed helpless, I texted him again while my heart was being crushed from inside and the pain couldn't be resisted, "please Rahul, don't do this to me, don't you remember the promise you did to me? Don't you want to be with me? Please stop joking now. I know you can't live without me. Please reply, I beg you". He saw my text, the blue tick in WhatsApp seemed too horror to me. This is it, I thought.
My emotions took over my self respect, my ego was lost in front of my love. I didn't care about my self respect anymore, I just texted again, "Rahul, I know you can't hurt me, please tell me what happened? Did I do any mistake? You said once that we will be together always and you showed the stars and said we will be together even after death. What happened to that? I need a reply, you can't do this". He didn't reply for this too.
I removed my WhatsApp display picture, I became Insane. The love made me blind to the reality. My brain said enough, don't text again. But am I listening to it? No, my heart had already took control of me. I felt helpless. I texted again, "please Rahul, don't be a cheat, I want you, why did you come to my life? Why did you play with me? You destroyed my life". I became furious this time.
The online in his chat turned to typing and I had the hope in me again that he might say he loves me.
He took sometime to reply, probably very long text and finally he replied, "Look Manisha, whatever happened between us was not real, I was just attracted to you, it wasn't love. please stop bothering me, I am marrying someone else in new york, please don't irritate me by your texts, my girlfriend would be upset if she sees these messages, I am changing my number and this is my last text, don't try to contact me again. If you really love me, please let me be in peace and don't ever try to come back into my life".

My heart started screaming inside, I felt like it's getting squeezed. I started crying loudly, I screamed and throwed my phone to the wall and it just crashed and fell on the floor. What else do I have? It's gone. Everything I dreamt was gone, just like that. Before 4 days I was with Rahul, now I am alone and he is marrying someone else. Oh my god, I can't tolerate this, the pain, I can't tolerate this, how will I ever survive like this? What if I couldn't forget him ever? My dad and mom came inside the room and mom hugged me. She was crying, too. What mistake did they do? Why should they cry for me?
"Please don't cry mom...dad ", I said to both of them.
"I will talk to his father", my dad said.
"No dad, if he only doesn't want me, what's the use of speaking with his dad? It's over", I said.
"Please leave me alone for sometime", i asked.
"Take care", My dad understood Me and they both left the room.
I cried, I cried the whole day, I didn't have food, I didn't speak to anyone, it was a hard hit on me. Where is my Rahul? The one who loved me? Where are you Rahul? I am crying here. Where are you now? I slept thinking about him.