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Apologies

I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything that I've done, every big thing and every little thing that's happened because of me. This is my apology to you.

I'm sorry for being such a terrible person. I'm sorry for being so annoying and hard to deal with. I'm sorry for being such a burden to everyone, for being nothing but a problem child. For always getting in the way, and being such a nuisance. For all the annoyance I've caused to all of you. For making your lives so difficult. I don't mean to be annoying, I don't mean to get in the way. I just want to be useful for once. I want to make people happy. I want to do something with my life. I don't always mean to get in the way. That frown I put on your face, I didn't mean to do it, I truly didn't. The anger I've caused you, I didn't mean that either. I just wanted to make you happy but I failed just like I do with everything else. I'm so sorry and I mean it.

I'm sorry for not being good enough. I never have been and I never will be no matter how much I want to be. I'm sorry I'll never be good enough for you, and I'm sorry I made you feel like you had to put up with me. I'm so sorry for making your life so difficult. For being only a burden to you and getting in the way. I'm sorry I never made you as happy as I wanted to. That's always my goal, to make others happy. Too bad that's just another thing I always fail at. I really am just a nuisance, nothing but a burden to the people around me and I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for being such a strange person. Just someone that no one ever gets. For being so difficult to deal with all the time. For always craving attention just to know that someone actually cares. Instead all I do is make people mad at me. Ironic that's the one thing I'm actually good at. I'm terrible and I don't want to be like this. I want to be better but I'm not better, I'm pathetic, a mess, and annoying burden to the others around me. All I do is get in the way, I'll never be good enough.

I'll try to change so that I don't cause problems anymore.

I'm so so sorry.