Dark Beauty /Sirius Black/ [2]

Dark Beauty - 34.

Chapter 34

Dear Adria,

Things are tough, I guess.

I don't know what to do. Slytherin's reputation has gotten so out of hand that sometimes I don't even want to leave the common room because of the stares I get, it's like my status as a muggleborn has been wiped completely because of course, I'm in the "bad" house, which means I follow that dickhead.

Sorry for the language, it's just so frustrating.

Lia is trying to solve some things with Ramona, they had a huge fight - bigger than the one I had with Jesse, but I'll get to that later - and they both said things they didn't mean. I guess people were telling Ramona a bunch of lies about Lia and I can't deny that the girl is gullible, so she believed them to an extent.

Of course, Lia's word always comes first with Ramona, but she just has to make sure and I don't blame her for what's going on. Lia blew up though, and I don't blame that either because the lies were terrible, and I suppose the last person you want to believe such stupid things like being a death eater is your girlfriend.

I tried to study in the library the other day and all I could hear was whispering, I love my house and I love being a Slytherin but sometimes I feel like wearing my house colours as less as possible because I know people talk about me wearing those robes.

They feel sorry for me like they're sympathising the fact that I'm a muggleborn who has to walk around flaunting Salazar Slytherin's house colours, but I'm proud of my house and my colours. If I'm honest, I looked up a lot of stuff on Salazar Slytherin and Slytherin in general and personally I don't think he really hated muggles.

I don't think it was a hatred, I think he was scared. Wasn't his time - or around his time - when those witch burnings happened? Maybe he was afraid of that and not the actual people? I don't know, it's not Salazar Slytherin that I hate, it's this shithead guy trying to kill me.

Most of my friends in other houses have pushed me away, I'm not the girl I used to be to them and that hurt me more than anything I think. Even Jesse has lost friends because they don't want to associate themselves with the likes of me and because I'm his girlfriend, it's making things harder for him.

I tried to break up with him.

I did it nicely and I think I channelled some of you because I was crying the full time when I did it, he was livid and when he asked for the reason, I finally broke down and told him. I don't want him losing people because of me, I don't want him having a harder time at school because of me and because he's associated with me.

It's unfair for me to go through this and I know that, but I can put up with it, he doesn't need to and yet he does. He just held me for hours, and he told me that if I really wanted to break up with him then I can, but he want's an excuse other than that it'd be better for him.

He was being cheesy, and I smiled for the first time in months, so I don't think breaking up with him really would've been the best. That's the short version of what happened, we argued for half an hour about what was best, and he told me that his life would be nothing without me in it - that regardless of my house, it meant nothing to him because I meant everything to him.

It's hard to be apart from him when he's one of the only things able to make me happy.

His friends in other houses...the ones that left him aren't important to him, he said, because if they don't see how idiotic they're being then he doesn't want to associate himself with them. I think he's only trying to cheer me up most of the time and It does work, I can't lie about that.