Serendipity 2 JHope and Jimin

Part 26

Jimin

I got through the funeral with Yoongi by my side. He hardly left my side for days afterwards. All the boys and Sasa came too, and I appreciated their support more than words could say. Mum and Jihyun were a mess, and I really didn't want to leave them alone, so I went back home and stayed with them for a couple of days. Mum was mostly concerned about how they would live now without dad's income. Jihyun wanted to leave school and get a job but I told him on no account would he do that, he had to finish his education, it was what dad would have wanted. I could afford to support them both now and I wanted to do it.

When I finally settled dad's affairs and returned home it was straight back to work, and I was glad of the distraction. My mind was in a complete jumble about everything. I loved a man who didn't love me back but was my partner in almost every way. He supported me when I needed it, he took care of me, making sure I ate and that I was ok all the time. He was affectionate to a point, and he accepted my affection in return. Almost everything he did now he come to me to talk about it first and get my opinion.
"I just don't know what to do with him" I was sitting with Sasa in her office one afternoon trying to get advice, but she was reluctant to give it. She had enough going on with her own love life, and we seemed to be in very similar situations. Both In love with a person who acted like they loved us back but refused to admit it or do anything about it

"Jimin honestly I don't know what to tell you if I did I'd give the advice to myself"

"I know, I'm sorry it's just so frustrating "

"Tell me about it. the only thing I can tell you is that you have to ask yourself the same question I know I need to ask myself. Can you live with things how they are or not?"

"And if not?"

"Move on I guess, try to get over it, and in my case, I was planning on asking him not to do what he does anymore."

"You're going to ask Namjoon to not touch you or sit with you or anything anymore?"

"I may have to, I don't know what else to do"

"Good luck with that" I told her wryly

"I'm just going to tell him that we need to keep things on a certain level. We are friends and we live and work together but that's it"

"As I said good luck with that"

I said goodbye and headed downstairs to the dance studio< I wanted to go over the new routine we had learned a couple of times before dinner. I was just finishing my second run through when I heard the door.

"Yoongi hey"

"Hey Jimin "

"Did you want me for something?"

"Nothing in particular, I was just passing and saw you were in here"

"Right...Well actually I just finished"

"Great, I was going to go out to eat did you want to come?"

This was my decisive moment. Should I say no and explain to him that I couldn't keep doing this, that he was either mine or he wasn't, and if he wasn't could he please back off a little? Or did I say yes and keep things as they were, and live with his touches, and his looks, and his smiles, and go to bed at night dreaming about them. Even if that was all I would ever have of him
"Sure I'd love to can I shower and change first?"

It really was a no brainer

JHope

2013