It's really you on my mind (Creek)

9. Early Morning Thoughts

Tweek's PoV- (triggering content)

It was 2 am and I hadn't got a bit of sleep. I laid in bed with my eyes closed waiting for sleep to take me away but it never did. Only my thoughts kept me up.

I had no idea what today would consist of. Kenny and I are going home. Well, was it really home? I kept calling it that absent mindedly, not even thinking twice. Deep down I knew that my 'home' wasn't home. It was just a place, another house, and another room to stay in.

My mind began to wonder about what a real home would consist of. I considered a small, cozy house with mellow coloring. Or maybe something of the opposite, like a house with clean cut furniture and dark colored walls.

Or maybe my home wouldn't be a home at all. I had heard people call their home as a place in general, a feeling, a memory, and even a person.

I rolled to my side, facing Kenny who slept with ease across the room. I couldn't help but smile, it'd be nice to sleep so easily like him. To fall into a state where you were completely calm.

I blew air from my nose, rolling back to my back. It seemed to be a while passing once again as I sat in silence. That random twinge of sadness pulled at his chess. I didn't know where the feeling came from. I growled to myself.

Why was I like this? Why was the world asleep right now, and I am still up wondering about all the complicated questions in life?

I took my hands and covered my face. I felt pressure coming to my throat as a cry started to erupt from inside me.

This happened way to often to be normal. Maybe I am some kind of freak. If anyone were to look at me, they'd probably laugh at how a single person could make them self cry just by laying alone in bed.

I tried to think past all the bad thoughts rushing to my head. Why now? I'm supposed to be happy. But yet, the only thing coming to mind is how sad I was before I came here.

I had been alone in the world. And I was bullied and pushed around. I felt that no one loved me. I felt like a waste of space. And I fought wars against myself using my own skin as a battlefield.  And even after a battle was fought, it only hurt more to see as not a single thing in my head was settled. I had planned on eventually taking it too far. I planned on it all the time. The only time I slept, I'd have dreams of my own death.

Tears silently slipped down my cheeks. I keep one hand covering my mouth and the other lay tugging at the shirt on my chest. Everything ached.

This school wasn't much better. When I first arrived here, I still didn't see the point of living at all. I was picked on, and pushed around. And beat up more here that I was back before I came here. The guys here would pin me down and lay blow after blow to me.

Kenny eventually caught the guys. His face was shocked and even when I saw him walk over to me, I only expected more blows. Kenny was different than what I thought though. He shoved the guys away from me, and took me back to our cabin dorm. Kenny never let me get hurt again. Kenny kept me safe even after I told him to stop.

Back then, I didn't mind the beating. It was only a replacement to what I once did to myself. But after a while of sticking by Kenny, my mind set changed.

My eyes were burning from all the past memories building up pressure. Maybe I am a spaz, maybe I'm an idiot, maybe I'm a creep, but at least I have a friend in this cruel world.

I wiped my tears on my sleeve, and did my best to calm myself down. In only a few hours I'd be going back to South Park. It'd be different, I promised myself so many times that I actually fell asleep.

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The next morning I woke to a shaking of my own shoulder. Kenny rushed me to get up and get ready. So I did just that, I ran into the bathroom and got ready. I wore a white button up shirt with a baggy dark green sweater over it, only the collar and the ends of the shirt showed through.

I gathered up my luggage and so did Kenny. We both quickly walked to the front of the school. Many kids parents were pulling in and getting out to hug their sons.

It was almost heart warming to see all these jerks be going home to a family. I stood there smiling and looking around. A slight wind was blowing, but besides that the day was actually quite warm. The clear sky let the sun come down and shine over us.

I looked up to Kenny, who seemed to be searching for his family. I've never met Kenny's family before. I got excited and quickly turned to him tugging at his arm.

"K-Kenny! Can I meet your f-family!"

"Uhhh," Kenny looked down at me and rubbed the back of his neck while letting out a small laugh, "I guess you can if you want."

"O-okay!"

We waited beside each other for a little while longer before two very familiar individuals paced towards me.

"TWEEEEEEK!" Both of them yelled and the embraces me in a hug nearly tipping me over. I let out a laugh and hugged back. So Craig was right, my parents actually did want me back. I laughed to myself as we stayed in the group hug a little longer.

As the pulled back my mothered awed at me and pinched my cheek talking about how cute I was, and my dad was scuffing up my hair happily. I couldn't help but get embarrassed as Kenny stood there watching.

"Moooooom, daaaaaaaaad!" I said as I escaped their hands," this is Kenny, my friend."

The both shook hands with Kenny and introduced themselves. Then went straight back to showering my in hugs. They were never like this before, but I didn't mind.

As me and my parents had our moment together, I looked over to see Kenny hugging tightly onto a girl much younger than him. The girl had brown hair and what seemed like a very old jacket. She cried as she hugged Kenny.

I smiled as I watched Kenny talk to another boy who was a little older than him. He also had brown hair that was shaved on the side but went every which way at the top. He wore a red flannel and a white shirt underneath. Last came Kenny... mother I guessed. She had bright red hair and a southern accent. She quickly hugged on to Kenny, and then they started to walk to their car.

Kenny PoV:

I felt so happy to see Karen again. I had missed her the most. My mother wrapped her thin arms around me and spoke in my ear about how she 'missed her Kenny' and then started to walk me off to our old car. Saying how she needed to get home to my dad soon or he'd get his panties in a twist. I knew all to well what that meant.

But I heard my name being called as I walked off.
"Kenny! Leaving so soon!" Tweek laughed light on the subject, " I'll see you l-later, I guess?"

His confidence disappeared and I guess he probably saw my mother giving his her evil eye. I just ruffled his hair and laughed,
"Yea, I'll see you Tweek. Don't worry, you can meet my family still some other time." I laughed and I got into our car and drove off.

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Tweek PoV-

I could tell Kenny's family didn't have the best of wealth. And something told me Kenny didn't  want to deal with me. I waved to him as he left and began my own trip home.
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When we made it home, I unpacked all of my belongings back into my old room. By then, it was late in the evening and I was exhausted. Today wasn't the end of the world, as I thought it would be. I flopped on my big bed, face first and drifted to sleep.

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A/N) y'all I'm so ready to get this story movin' cause Tweek and Craig are so cute ahhh thanks for reading~