My poems, the sad reality of my life

They'll hate me

I'm terrified,

I know of what is to come,

I'm Petrified

To say the least

I'd sworn to secrecy,

Yet all was lies,

I've betrayed my friends,

Ignored their cries.

This deed cannot be undone,

They'll hate me!

It wasn't for fun!

I was afraid,

Feeling down all the time

Because I was their support,

Is it such a crime?

Telling an adult

All the things they said,

"I wish I'd die" and "the pain, it helps"

Their sleeves stained red,

"The cuts they burn,

But, distract as well from the horror of reality"

She expects me so sit, do nothing?

As she tears apart her body?

And what about him?

Always looking down, feeling shame,

Meanwhile, the others

they are the ones to blame,

The words they uttered,

It led them, my few friends

To this,

These cuts, there are to many to mend!

And now,

Somewhere deep down,

I know they'll hate me,

I'll see that frown,

Plastered upon their face

Once they see,

That sadly, out of everyone,

It was me,

Their rock, their closest of friends

That told the adults

Of the things they do

To themselves.

Wow, time flew,

I remember like it was yesterday,

That fighting over a crayon

Was as bad as it gets,

But now with the lights on,

I see clearly,

Depression, suicide, cuts and burns,

They haunt my dreams,

As the table turns.

While I pray, I realize

I'm now the one sad,

And utterly terrified,

Please friends,

Don't be mad.

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Hey guys, so this poem is like super personal because after that incident I talked about in the last one,

I realized that allot of my friends are suicidal and that I couldn't lose them,

So, as a solution I told my teacher who in my class cuts, who is depressed, and who is suicidal.

My teacher is gonna talk to them tomorrow and I'm afraid because they know I told her something and once they find out it was me, they'll hate me.

I did this a while ago with one of my friends and now were close but, at the time, she despised me.

So I'm terrified, anyways,

Thanks for all the reads, vote and comments guys, you literally make my day every time you guys comment (you know who you are) so thank you so much, you guys have made me cry because it means so much.

Remember, if you ever need anyone, let me know, ok? OK? good!

Now imma go because this is a LOOOONG authors note sooo,

BYE MY NINJA TURTLES!!!!! ❤