"Chris im pregnant" I let the words utter from my mouth. Shortly after that my mum comes down the stairs and guides us to the living room to discuss things.
"How do you know?" Chris asks
"I took a test" i say in response
"Why were you not using protection, now this has happened. Neither of you can even look after your self properly, better yet a child. However, under any circumstances are you going to abort this baby Mica."
My mum walks out holding her head down shaking it in disapointment.
"What now Chris"
"I actually came over here to tell you i think we should go on a umm break"
"Im fucking pregnant Chris, with your child and all you can say is that you think we should go on a fucking break! Are you fucking serious right now"
"Well i think we both need time to think and, you know, get prepared for whats to come"
"Do you want to be in the childs life?" I question
"I think i want to, do you want it"
"Chris just get out"
"Meesh" he says as he reaches out for my hand
"GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE CHRIS. I SHOULD HAVE SEEN THIS COMING. JUST GET THE FUCK OUT. I HATE YOU...I HATE Y...." i cant even finish my sentence. The waterfalls start again. My mum rushes in and Chris leaves quickly
"Baby, come here. Dont cry. Mummys got you. Im going to help you every step of the way, okay? Mummys got you" she says as she holds me in her arms.
My mum doesnt tell me "everthings going to be okay" like stupid people normally say in times like these. Instead she gives it to me straight. I need that though, i need to hear the truth. I need to hear how bad i fucked up so when im doing good i can look back and see how far i've come."
*3 hours later*
As i lay in the dark in bed and look at my ceiling, my phones rings. Its Jennifer. I decline the call, put my phone on aeroplane mode and put it down. The best thing i can do right now is shut everyone out. I dont want to hear what people have to say to "comfort" me. I dont want to hear anything.
*KNOCK KNOCK*
My mums gently pushes open my door with a plate of food and some apple juice. She tells me that she's left it on my dressing table and leaves.
The main question is, what now?
*CHRIS' PERSPECTIVE*
As soon as i hear Mica's mum coming i leave, quickly. I didnt know what to say to her, i didn know how to comfort her or be there for her. So instead i told her we should go on a break!? I feel bad but at the moment i think a break is the best thing for us. We need to give eachother space to think and just embrace the fact thst we have a child on the way.
She said she hated me. She just said she hated me. I dont know how to feel about that. A normal guy would be sad but i guess you can say im kinda inbetween. Happy because she wont attach herself to me during the pregnancy. Sad because when i looked in her eyes, i saw she really meant it.
I need to tell my mum but i dont know how. As i drive home i practice what to say to my mum:
"Hey mum, im going to be a father"
Nope, to cliche
"Soo mum, your going to be a grandmother"
That just sounds wrong
"Mum, Mica's pregnant, with my child"
No more time to practice, im outside.
As i walk in i smell the auroma of food cooking. Whenever my mums cooking shes in a good mood. Great, now i feel more preasurised!
"Mum"
"Yeah baby?" she says as she dances to her music meanwhile stiring the pot.
"Mica's umm, she's umm, she said she wants to taste some of your mac and cheese" i lie.
What the hells wrong with me?
*MICA'S PERSPECTIVE*
As i lay on my bed just letting tears roll out from my eyes my door knocks and in walks Jennifer and Laurelle; im guessing my mum told them what just happened.
"Girl the fuck is you doing? Get up baby girl, we're going out" says Jennifer
"Yh Mica, you cant just lay in bed and cry over Chris and the baby, you have to be happy and just accept the fact that your pregnant!" Laurelle says
"Your going to be a great mother because your already a great daughter, bestfriend, and sister. Dont let anyone tell you otherwise!" Jennifer says as she drags me out of bed.
"Guys i want to be alone today im so sorry" i say with tears rolling down my cheeks
"Well im only giving you 2 hours by yourself because we're both having a sleepoverrrr!" Laurelle shouts
"Yh M, theres no way you should be alone in a time like this. We love you, your our bestfriend. Do you really think we wouldnt be here for you?" argues Jennifer
I just say okay and get up to shower. I dont know if they were expecting me to say "okayyyy lets gooo!" and jump for joy as if all my problems were gone.
Im emotionally bleeding, hurting, in agony and nothing will dull this pain.
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