But Do You Love Me?

chapter fourteen : When Its All Too Much

Okay im at home now and Markus still hasnt called me. Lemme just call Chris.

*PHONE RINGS OUT*

Im sure they'll be here soon anyways.
Suddenly the door knocks aggresivley? I peer through the little window to see Jen and Laur.
Opening the door to see there angry faces already lets me know somethings wrong.

"Hey guysss?" I say confused

"Dont fucking hey guys us" Jennifer says
"You havent spoken to us in like 3 days? You dont message, you dont call?" She continues

"Yh, you've been MIA? Only time you need us is if theres a problem, but i guess your life i care free soo?" Laurelle says annoyed

"Guys, relax. I wanted to message you but with everything going on i couldnt. Markus and Chris said i shouldnt!" i say nervousley

"Laurelle. Did i not say Chris is still controlling her, even though they not together?" Jennifer questions Laurelle

"Yh you did"

"And why the fuck is Markus involved. He dumped yo ass how long ago?"

"Jennifer!" Laurelle screams

I stand there, slowly getting annoyed. They dont know shit. They always judge me if only they understood! But they dont, they never do.

"If you both were real fucking niggas you would understand, but yo stupid ass' dont. You never do. Im going through so much bullshit right now but all y'all think about is yourself! Fuck outta here with that!" i say slaming the door on them.

I have enough bullshit going on in my life so im not about to sit here and deal with theirs too, the fuck?

I slowly walk to my room, i feel bad. Yh they both disrespected me but i shouldnt have acted like that. I should've invited them in and told them everything. But i messed up...

*MARKUS' PERSPECTIVE*

Im still on this table, well i cant move anyway my stomach kills! Every now and then this familiar looking person comes over and changes my bandage and patch. They dont say anything but when they walk over, their body shape, their walk, its all too familiar! But i can never see their face! They turn on this bright light thats blinding so i turn my head away.

Wherever i am, its empty. 2-3 people come in here every now and then but theres always someone sitting near the table watching me. I was meant to call Mica. I know shes worrying but how can i?
Whoever this person is clearly doesnt want me to have contact with the outside world so theirs no point of asking.

Im in and out of sleep. Its like they injected me with something or put something in the disgusting food when they force feed me. Its disgusting! They give me left over pepperoni, bits of cheese and peppers and shit that drop off the cheap pizza slices!
That nurse hasnt been back for the night but i need to know who she is; she needs to come back. Maybe she can help me escape. This sounds all cliche, a "i've been kidnapped, save me" typa movie but on a real, wherever i am is not safe. I hear screaming and shit everynight.

Yh im, well, i was a drug dealer but i never dealt with this type of shit before.

My thoughts are interupted by foot steps coming towards me. As they get closer and closer, i cant help but pray that its the nurse or Mica, but its not.

*CHRIS' PERSPECTIVE*

I limp towards a hospital. At least here people wont be looking for me. I take out a pocket knife meanwhile i contemplate on whether im seriously about to stab myself just to get away from everything?
Yep, im gonna do it.
I turn the blade around and try to pin point where i want to stab myself.

Chest? Too risky
Thighs? Major arteries, thats suicide
Stomach? I dont know the affects but its probably not that deep.

Staring at the clean shiny blade makes things alot harder so i close my eyes and let it tear through my flesh.
"ARGHH" i scream out in agony.

I have to make it look like a 'stab n run' so i skid the knife across the ground into a drain and lay there, bleeding out.
It feels like im dying. As my life slowly slips away from me i dont try to crawl to help or scream out for someone. Instead, i lay there looking to the dark sky. I feel like dying cause its the only w...

*falls unconcious*

*MICA'S MUM'S PERSPECTIVE*

I run into the house slaming the door. I just done something so terrible! So..

"Mum?" Mica says

"Yes darling, i umm"

"I thought they only gave you 2 extra hours? You've been gone the whole day?"

"Yh Mica" i try to think of a lie. Something to cover what i saw, what i did, and why i havent said anything to anyone about it?
"I went to visit your Aunty Giligan, i came here to see if you wanted to come but"

"Oh i was at the hopital" Mica explains

"What, why!" I say dropping my bag

"Nothing big, mum why do you have a medical kit in your bag? Mica asks looking at my bag as stuff slide out.
I thought you wasnt allowed to take them home?"

"Oh you know me" i say with a small fake laugh

"Alright, see ya in the morning"

"Alrighteee hun"

I hold my stomach as i slide down the front door landing on the ground. I need to tell someone what i saw, what i done but who?

*AUTHORS NOTE*

Wait! So did Chris really just stab himself just to have somewhere to sleep and so no one can find him?
And is it possible Mica mum is the nurse that works for Ronny and Ricardo!?