Fixing Four (A Divergent Fanfic) Completed

Chapter 35

     When I get to Tobias' apartment I slowly open up the door and prepare to see him standing there.Christina had went back to her apartment to fix her broken door and rest from the ruff day we have had but unlike her I wont rest til I know all I want to know.

     When I walk in everything is still the same as I left them.Everything is perfectly organized except for the pile of close in the corner of the room and the messed up bed from where I slept.

     I walk across the room and sit down on his bed and lay on my side.I just lay there thinking about him.I feel as if I want to cry but no tears seem to come.I feel nothing but a dark emptyness that seems to want to swallow me whole.Now I know how he felt when I died.

     After a while of laying there I close my eyes and try to rest.Just before I drift off to sleep I feel someone's hand barely touch my shoulder.I open my eyes to see Tobias sitting next to me staring at me.

     I don't think twice before I quickly raise up and kiss him on the lips.When sit there and kiss for a while until we finally separate.

     "Tris? Are you ok?" He asks concered.

     "No Im not Tobias" I say almost cutting him off "What happened? Why can't no one else see you but me?"

     He looks down at his shoes and says "I had a conversation with your mother....I believe I was in heaven." he takes a deep breath "She said that she knew that I was going to die and that that was the reason why she asked you to die."

     "That doesn't make no sense.Why didn't she just tell me?"

     "She knew that you wouldn't believe her and she didn't want to cause you any more pain."

     "Then how come I can talk to you if your....dead." I say the last word strained.

     "She said that only the divergent can come back as a complete person but those who are not can come back as a ghost."

     "But your not divergent." I add.

     "She said that the reason you would be able to see me would be because you were once dead and would have a connection with the dead also."

     I stay silent for a while and stare at the floor trying to take this all in.

     "I am going to fix this Tobias." I say breaking the silence.

     I stand up and start heading over to Tobias' desk and grab and sheet of paper and a pencil.

     "What are you doing?" I hear Tobias say behind me. I begin to write.....

 

  Dear Christina,

             Since I came back from the dead I realized that something was wrong.I wasn't suppose to come back.I was meant to be dead.I am meant to be with Tobias.

      I am writing this because by the time you read this Ill be dead.I wanted to thank you for being the bestest friend I have ever had.Don't do anything stupid and promise me you wont start drinking again.Ill make sure to tell Will that your ok.

                                      Your friend,

                                              Tris

     By the time I finish writing Tobias jerks me around and places his hands on both sides of my arms and looks at me in panic.

     "You are not doing this,Tris.You are not going to commit suicide."

     "I was suppose to be dead in the first place,Tobias!"I yell at his face. He doesn't say a word after that. I walk over to the table silently and grab the paper and start to head out the door.Before I open it I quickly turn around to see Tobias just sitting on the bed staring at something in the corner of the room.

     I can't bare to just leave him like this so I walk up to him and sit down next to him.

     "Why are you doing this? You have got a chance to start over and live your life again." he says now staring at the ground.

     "I can't live my life without you." I say with tears in my eyes. "I wouldn't be able to do anything anymore.Your to important.I love you Tobias."

     He looks up at me with tears in his eyes and leans in and kisses me slowly.I put all my focus on his lips and how they easily connect with mine.He carefully places his hand on my cheek and whispers "I love you,Tris" in my ear.

     "I love you,Tobias." I say letting my lips barely touch his.

     "Promise me something,Tobias." I say before kissing him again.

     "Like what?" he says into my ear.

     "Promise me you'll wait for me on the other side."

     He stops and stares at me or a moment and quickly kisses me and says "Ok,Ill wait for you but I want you to promise me something." I nod my head.

     "I want you to wait til tomarrow to do it."

     "Why?"

    "Because I want you to enjoy your last day." I nod my head slowly and take a deep breath.

     "Ok." I say finally "Just don't leave me."

     He smiles a little and says "I wont ever leave you....ever." I smile also and kiss him.He crawls over to the other side of the bed and lays down and I lay down next to him also.I snuggle up close to him and close my eyes.He carefully rubs my back slowly to help me fall asleep.Just as I am about to fall asleep I whisper "I love you,Tobias." and then I doze off into a deep dreamless sleep before he replies.