Lovin' You Again

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Avi and I sat in silence just staring at each other once we pulled away. I couldn't deal, I missed Avi so much. I've said this a million times but I miss him in Pentatonix. It would be so much fun going on tour with him if we were...

Nevermind.

I hear Avi chuckle beside me as we're still staring in to space. I look over at him and he seems like he's just lost in thought. I don't blame for being so. It must've been terrible for him to like me all these years and me never really notice him. And then boom, a year off of Pentatonix and all of his dreams have come true. His face is red and he's smiling widely at the ceiling. His eyes move to looking down at his hands, which are fiddling with each other. I can't help but think it's adorable. Avi's always been quite the childish human being, in a good way of course. He's always done actions that a five year old would do yet something about him made it charming and adorable. 
I suddenly feel like I'm 100% over Jeremy, which I don't think I ever saw coming. He was my fiance, my everything, for 6 years. When we split, my world felt like it was ending. Pentatonix seemed like it was just going down the drain even though we are working on a new album. Everyone has been so out of it. We lost Avi, one of the most necessary part of our group and he made it work. He was the one who kept us humble, he kept us focused. He knew when fun was too much fun and we had to get to work. He knew when the right time to joke around was. Everyone loved him, the fan-girls especially. 

I mean, how could you not? His smile, his personality, his eyes, everything is just so perfect. ANd right now I'm seriously kicking myself for not noticing it before.

Better late than never, I guess. 

"What?" His eyes gaze over at me and his smile is still there. He is still lost in his thoughts and I can tell. 
"I've been waiting for that for 6 years, Kirstie." Avi says, with a genuine smile across his face. I don't say anything. I reach over and peck him on the lips again and pull him into a tight embrace. I feel safer than I ever did in Jeremy's arms right now. I've hugged Avi before, why is it suddenly like an electric shock now? "Who knew that I was too." I whisper in his ear. With that, he tightens his hug on me and he buries his head into my neck, his beard, light and fluffy, tickling it slightly. It more or less feels like a cloud of fluff is just there and it's really comfortable. 

"You're not the same Avriel." 

"What do you mean?" But deep down he knows what I meant. The way he's taken a complete 180 degree turn on his music genre. His style is still the same but he doesn't look like the pop-bass singer that he was. He's not the "sexy", "hot" bass canon that he used to be. He is, truly, a folk singer and his looks play the part now. It does not change how beautiful he is, but it does change the perspective of him. He's way more genuine and calm, his 5 year old, BBQ loving side still there but more dormant as the nature-loving folk singer shines through. Avi used to be the guy who would make every girl faint any time he spoke. Now anytime his words make a sentence, the brain and heart takes it in, with an occasional flutter of the heart. He is making his way into the 30's, being 28 about to turn 29. He's simply finding his true self and I admire that about him greatly. 

"You're a folk singer, you're a nature man Avriel. You're not the same bass canon you used to be. It's admiring yet intriguing how much you've changed." Everyone knows it. His change had taken place in 2016, to 2017. We took out the chair girl act out because Avi no longer wanted to grind his hips in a sexual way. He applied to the more mature audience as he cared more about nature and inspirational quotes than he had about how sexy his hips were. The comments showed it too, they eventually faded from being "AVI YOU'RE SO HOT" to "Omg Avi's so adorable!" as time went on.

And when his EP dropped and everyone realized how mature his mindset really was, and when he finally realized that is where he was meant to be, he left us. 

"I focus on Earth's natural beauty, Kirstie. I haven't changed, I'm still the old Avi Kaplan that was with you guys I've just, matured more." His eyes were shining at me yet they looked with concern.

"Why did you leave us?" I bluntly ask, wanting to know the real truth.

"The reason I said was real Kirst. I belong admiring nature for what it is. Hell, I've even found a love for photography. My love for music and bass music in particular will always be there. However, folk music and around my family and nature is what fills my heart most." 

I wanted to beg for him to come back. I know that would not do anything though. You can't change a man's desires. 

"And I'll always love you, too." Wait what? 

"What?" 

"Kirstie I've loved you since day one, truth be told when I took you to that concert in 2013 I was going to ask you out. But you met Jeremy so I kept my distance," 

Wow.

"My feelings for you never changed, but I wanted you to be happy. And I couldn't bring myself to be close to you anymore so we stopped talking." 

I remember the day Avi and I unfriended each other on Instagram. It was actually because of that concert that we had gone to. I met Jeremy there and he was uncomfortable with me talking to Avi as friendly as I did to him. 

"Avi, I'm so sorry." All I could do was apologize. How do you make up for 6 years of tension? Especially when he loved you that whole time?

Well, I can think of one but I don't think Avriel would be into that.

Avi probably would but Avriel? No way.

Though he is a boy.

Nevermind. 

"No it's okay. I'm really happy we got to meet up again though." Don't you dare say you're leaving me again Avriel Benjamin Kaplan. 

"I should probably get goi-"

"Please don't leave." He seems taken back by my outburst but I say it genuinely. Avi's been gone for months and I just want to spend more time with him. Maybe I can even get Pentatonix back together for a reunion or something? 

"Well okay. Do you want to go see a movie or something?" 

I smile, Avi initiated the hang out this time. 

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Sorry for the blunt ending there! I didn't want it to be that long!
BTW Expect the debut of "A kiss is just a kiss"'s sequel soon! 

I've been thinking about where I want the story to go next and I think I finally have it figured out! I'll probably write a chapter or two before I upload it though, but expect it soon! 

See you soon! XOXO