Lovin' You Again

Forgiveness

I sat near the tree, on top of a picnic table. My leg was bouncing nervously as I awaited his arrival. We agreed to finally meet up after a few days of not talking to each other. We missed our date, which probably hurt the most. That night was supposed to be a happy occasion after not seeing each other in what felt like forever.  He hadn't spoken a word to me and I don't really blame him, I wouldn't have either. I finally broke though, after that dream...I, I couldn't handle it anymore. I missed him, I missed his smile, his voice, I already lost him once, I couldn't lose him again. I remember every detail of that dream...and everything was so accurate. The voices, the feeling, his form. I wanted to jump out and scream "Please don't go," but the dream kept me from doing so. In my sleep I was hurting from seeing me just let him leave. I didn't budge to stop him. I forever regret not convincing him to stay. So many things I did I regret. 

Why did I even consider taking a picture or hanging out with Jeremy? I was loyal to Avi yet I didn't even tell him I was hanging out with my ex. And who knows what would've happened if I had gotten drunk...I don't even wanna think about it. 

"Kirstin." A voice says. I turn around to meet him, looking monotone. He had no expression of happiness or sadness on his face, I think just pure confusion. He sat down next to me, his eyes fixated on his feet yet again.

"Avi, I don't know where to start. I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have hung out with Jeremy even if it was a coincidence he was there. I made so many mistakes that night. I should've told you, hiding it just made it seem more suspicious, and I can't tell you how sorry I am for that. I can't handle being without you though, this time apart made me realize how much you mean to me," His eyes finally met mine after way too long. His expression was sad, yet shocked. But hidden within his green orbs I could find a hint of happiness, miles deep, waiting for the right words to come out. 

"After you left Pentatonix, something was different and I didn't know what. But that day I saw you in the grocery store after Jeremy and I broke up it felt like fate. I don't know how I could ever try to possibly explain how sorry I am Avi. But no matter if you decide to forgive me or not, I will..." I pause, breathing heavily, "Always love you Avri-" I'm broken off by his lips, finally back home with mine. His hands grab the back of my head passionately like the loss of contact was too painful. And I'd have to agree. 

I kiss back harder, grabbing his black curls resting underneath his snapback. His hand falls from my head to my waist and he pulls me on his lap. The park was pretty empty, which made the moment even better. He detaches his lips only to return on the corner of my face, inching down my neck one by one. That's new....I pull back for a second, although I missed that contact severely, I missed his voice  and I wanted to tease him.  

"Well?" I ask.

"Was I not doing a good job of showing you my answer?" He asks with a smirk on his face. I smile and pull him in again. But instead he teases me back by brushing his lips on me, but then pulling back. 

"AVI!" 

He laughs. "I had a question for you!" 

"What is it?" 

"So.." His hands leave my waist to go to the ground behind him to support him. I sit on his lap, my hands draped over his shoulders. He eyes the ground before reaching up to me once again. I smile at his beautiful eyes. "I know we were supposed to have a date after not seeing each other for a while and that didn't go to plan cause of..." 

"Go on Avriel..." 

"Do you think we can reschedule?" I don't answer, instead I kiss him like he did to me earlier. It lasts shorter than I had wanted and he pulls back, pouting.

I smirk, "Was I not doing a good job of showing you my answer?" We both chuckle and he leans forward to kiss the side of my forehead, obviously wanting to get back to state we were before. 

We both agree we'd save more kissing for later, as we both needed to go to work. We agreed we'd squeeze each other in our schedules more though, which we were both happy to secure. Avi and I planned our "reunion" date for Monday night, which gives me a day to plan ahead. I want to do something special for him to let him know I'm still sorry for what I did and that I really love him. I'm sure I'll come up with something. He always liked my baking. Or barbecue? Ugh, details for later. We part ways, and I go home to cuddle my dogs and think about what the date could bring.

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AHH Short chapter I'm sorry! But I want the date chapter to be big! Alsooo, I have some news that some of you would hopefully enjoy and I kind of hinted at it a bit with their actions. I'm thinking of adding some smut into the story line. I feel like both of them would've had to gotten a little friskier at this point in their relationship, plus it would push things a long. XD I know how awkward it can be though, so please give me your input on that! 

Also, sorry for the lack of updates on Broadopera, I released it early because I kind of left you guys open for a while and I wanted to make up for it which probably wasn't the best idea. XD Lots of writers block on that, I'm not sure if I should unpublish it or not. :/ The beginning was fun to write but maybe it'd be better as a one shot, I am making a one shot book, it's in the works. I don't know. input? 

SORRY I know I ask for a lot of feedback from you guys! I love ya'll! I'm on spring break so expect a lot of updates this week :) 

See you VERY soon! XOXO