Lovin' You Again

Havana

Today we recorded a cover of 'Havana' by Camilia Cabello. It was weird for Avi not to be heard, but it was nice to finally be thinking about someone when singing again. Although hearing the low notes from Matt and not Avi was a bit hard for me, it still felt good to get back into the grind again. I told Avi I'd let him listen to it when he came over later on today. 

I was sitting on the couch, listening to our cover of 'Havana' once again. 

'He took me back to east Atlanta na na na'

Avi loves nature, he's taken me on a few walks in places and spots I never even knew existed in California. His love for nature and the earth's beauty makes me love him even more. It's amazing how he seems even more at home when he's out there. His eyes light up whenever he sees a beautiful spot in any place. That was his favorite thing about touring, he loved performing but he had a true passion for the landmarks we came across. 

'There's something bout his manners, Havana ooh na na' 

He was always such a gentleman. He always greeted me with a good morning text and ended things with a goodnight text. We never fought, he was always so sweet. Whenever we'd go somewhere he'd never let me open the door or go up or down steps by myself. He treated me like I was a princess and I was in love with it. 

'I knew it when I met him, I loved him when I left him' 

I never got over Avi even when Jeremy and I started dating. I still liked him, it killed me that I was refrained from being as close to him. I still think that if I had gone wit him, he never would've left us. I'll forever hate myself for letting such an amazing man wait more than 6 years to be with me. I don't deserve him, I hurt him for more than 6 years. I don't deserve the way he's treating me like such a princess. And I could certainly never thank him enough for it either.

As I listened, I noticed our sound wasn't the same. Not quite the same. I knew what it was immediately. Avi. I knew the second he decided he was going to leave that we wouldn't ever be the same again. Avi has always been a distinctive voice and part of our group, and even if it changed a tiny bit, it was still enough to make us sound different. Matt and Avi have two different kind of voices. Avi's is more deep and buttery, mesmerizing and it makes your ears tickle. Matt has a more generic bass voice. That's all I can say. There were parts in every song that we did where you can hear Avi's bass and your mouth just drops. He's so unbelievable talented and his voice is a gift that he puts to good use. Avi sounded...like a computer bass! That's all there is to it. There were things he could do that I've never heard or seen before. As much as Matt did a good job, I feel like we lost a huge part of our distinctive sound. 

I sigh, thinking about how much I miss my basscannon. A knock comes at my door and I run to it, knowing who it was. I open it to see the man I had been hoping would come early and surely enough, he did. He smiled at me and I jumped on him, throwing my arms and legs around him and digging my face into his warm, fluffy neck. I know he was surprised by my outburst, but he certainly wasn't upset that I'm latched on to him like this. "Woah! Kirstie, Hi!" He said, laughing and his deeply missed voice vibrating against me. 

"I missed you," I whined, squeezing him tighter. He chuckles again and steps inside. He walks over to the couch and sets "us" down. He tries to pull me off of him but I don't get off without a fight. 

"Kirst, I saw you yesterday. I missed you too but it hasn't been that long," He kisses my ear and I finally pull away. "I know," I say briefly. He knows how much I miss him being in Pentatonix, it's getting to be an obsession though. 

I sigh, "We recorded Havana...." 

"Oh yeah! You gonna let me hear it?" I nod and pass him my phone and headphones. I go into my music and tap our "Havana" single cover and shudder slightly when I see our new colors that don't include Avi. He wraps his arm around me and I cuddle into his chest, wrapping my arms around his midsection. I try to watch his facial expressions as he listens. He smiles when he hears the man who took his place, but his eyes have a sad glint to them. 

"Matt's killing it!" He says, trying to be supportive of the fellow bass. I just nod, knowing that I can beg to differ.  He doesn't say much, he just bops his head back and forth while listening. After the song ends, he pulls the headphones off his head and sets it down o the floor. He turns to me and smiles. "Kirstie that was amazing, you guys killed it! You sounded beautiful as always," He says, pecking my lips and smiling at me afterwards. 

"It was alright, it wasn't the same without you," I say honestly. He smiles sadly, but shakes his head. "Nonsense, Matt did great," 

I sigh. "Hey you know what?" He pulls out his phone and brings up twitter. "I'm going to be supportive," He says, kissing my temple. I snuggle into him and watch what he does. He's typing...

Avriel&TheSequoias: Soooo excited to see what you guys think of @ PTXOfficial's new work. I'm in LOOVVE with it! <3 

He tags Matt, and PTXOfficial and puts his phone down. "See? Supportive, Pentatonix is still amazing Kirst, and it's all because of you," I smile and hug him tightly. How did I ever deserve him? 

We cuddle the rest of the night and end up falling asleep on the couch.

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Hehe, this chapter  I included my opinion about PTX's new cover. That's honestly what I think. I don't hate Matt, he's alright. I do think he just sounds like a generic bass though. Where as for Avi, he had a distinctive voice that could do so many things. You know what I mean? Overtones, his growl notes that makes your ears tickle whenever you hear them. I'm sure Matt has his own abilities but Avi will always be the true bass of PTX to me :) 

But what about you guys? What did you think of it? Let me know in the comments!!! 

And HOLY MOLY!!!! This reached 1,000 views! That is INSAAAANNNEEE. That is a HUGE number. Thank you guys so much!! I can't wrap my head around it, that's equivalent to about everyone in my school looking at this story which... BLOWS MY MIND. THANNK YOUU I LOVE YOU GUYS!! 

BTWW...I don't want to say too much yet but something is in the works. :)  I'll let your minds soar to what it could be. 

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