Lovin' You Again

"First" Date

I groan loudly as I look to see my alarm going off. I have to be ready for my date with Avi in fifteen minutes and I'm kind of freaking out. He asked me out a few days ago and we finally managed to set a day and figure out what to do. He's taking me to this really nice restaurant not far from here. He told me not to worry about paying since he'd apparently do it. He's so sweet. I'm also really nervous for this date though. Avi and I haven't really gone out on a "date" since that concert back in 2013 which ended up with me grinding on him and then meeting my future fiance, Jeremy, who broke my heart. 

We were such good friends before then, and that night ruined it because Avi liked me but I had met Jeremy. What if something doesn't work out here? What will happen then? I just got Avi back after all this time, I don't want to lose him again. Then again, he is just a guy. That's what I told myself for our date in 2013 too. If I go into it thinking he's my ex-bandmate, it's just going to make things awkward. 
'He's just a guy Kirstie' I thought to myself as I applied my last bit of makeup. I had on a low-cut black and blue dress that flared out by my knees. I straightened my hair and wore black heels. A knock came at my door and I knew it was go time. 

The drive there was better than expected. He told me that I looked "stunning" and in return I pecked him on his lips which he responded delightfully to. And we talked..like a lot. He was being silly and reminded me of old inside jokes we used to have with each other. I forgot how much I missed being close with Avi. When we got to the restaurant he had just as many manners as he did when we went out for breakfast. He held the door for me, pushed me in my seat, paid for our meal, anything manly and sweet, he probably did. 

I thought we were going home when Avi passed the street to go back to my house. 

"Avi, you missed the turn." I said, giggling. 

He grinned at me, "We're not done yet." 

I scrunched my eyebrows at him, wondering what the bass-er...ex-bass man was up to. I tried to ask him numerous times where we were going and he wouldn't answer me. He'd just smirk and even let out a chuckle anytime I'd ask. The traffic had pretty much disappeared and we were in nothing but grass fields now. The area we were in was beautiful, very Avi. 

Surely enough he pulled into a nice little area next to a lake. He turned the car off and just sat back for a second. Without saying anything, he went over to my side and opened the door for me. We walked over to the side of the lake, and the only thing I can use to describe it was...beauty. The moon shined gorgeously onto the lake and so many stars and galaxies were visible from this area.

"Why are there so many stars visible here Av?" I asked. 

"You'd be surprised what you can see when there are no city lights." 
I smiled, "This is beautiful."

"I'm glad you think that...because you fit in perfectly." 

Dang, that was smooth. I'll give Avi that one. I giggled and punched in the shoulder lightly. He pretended to be mortally hurt by it but I knew he wasn't. He guided me back to the car and we sat on the edge of the front. He put his arm around my shoulders shyly, I could tell he was nervous. I didn't hesitate to cuddle close to him though. I wrapped my arms around his waist and rested my head in the crook of his neck. He wasn't that much taller than me now due to my heels but it felt perfect and long overdue anyway. His heartbeat was fast and I giggled at his obvious nervousness. 

"Be quiet Kirstin, I've been dreaming of this for years and it actually happened." He teased. I was slightly taken aback when my body vibrated when he spoke. "Sorry Avi, it's just cute how scared you are that's all." 

He stuttered, "I-I'm not scared." I gave him an unconvinced "Mhm" and he nudged me. We staye quiet for several minutes which was the perfect time to simply take everything in. The atmosphere was flawless, it was everything a stereotypical perfect date should be. I hadn't ever seen a sky like the one above me before ever. I took in the moonlight and how it shone brightly on us as if it was saying "Finally!" 
I glanced over to Avi, who was simply taking in the atmosphere as well. His beard was trimmed neatly, and his hair was tied into his signature man-bun. For a second there I swore I saw the old Avi Kaplan. The moon light shined against his slick brown hair, making it outline his head perfectly. Avi's green eyes popped in the light as well and to my surprise, his eyes had a blue-ish tint to them in this light which was breathtaking. Has it really taken me this long to notice how gorgeous this man really is? I was positive he knew about my gaze at him. He smiled and his eyes looked down at his feet. He tightened his grip on me. 

"You know I can feel your eyes on me right?" He asks.

"I know, I don't mind." 

"Kirstie?"

"Yes Avi?" 

"What are we?" 
I knew this question was going to come at some point. He missed the chance to ask many years ago and I knew he wasn't going to miss it this time. I wanted more than anything to be with him. 

"I-I don't know. I want to be with you but I'm nervous to be honest."

"Why?"

"Because Avi. What if things don't work out?" I knew I shouldn't have said that the second I did. Guys never like it when you doubt the relationship. This is Avi though, he's more understanding than most. 

"Kirst, if things don't work out they don't work out. But I'm in love with you and I always have been. I promise I will do my best to make you happy. If anything is wrong, you know me, you can tell me." He says. His eyes are locked on me and they are not moving. I hear the genuineness in his voice. He means every word that he's saying. 
What the hell.

"Okay. I'll be with you then." My heart skips a beat. I'm dating Avi Kaplan.

I'm dating Avi Benjamin Kaplan. 
His eyes light up and he pulls me into a tight embrace. 

I know Avi hasn't dated anyone in a long time, and I could feel how happy he is. The shaking in his hands, the speed of his heartbeat, and the unmistakable look of happiness on his face. His smile is genuine and I couldn't be happier to have that effect on him. 

After what felt like forever he pulled away. I wasn't letting it just be a hug though. I cupped his bearded cheeks and pulled him in so that our lips met. He instantly relaxed and responded. I felt his arms hold my hips tightly and he kissed back. Our lips moved in sync perfectly. It may have seemed cheesy but with Avi, a passionate kiss under the moon was well deserved. 

Not to mention he's a great kisser. 

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WOW I'm actually alive. XD I'm so sorry for missing a few days! School would not quit making everything hell this week. I had tests out the wah-hoo and the teachers loved giving homework. Also my grandma has been in the hospital so the past couple days haven't been easy. However, I'm back and I'll keep this up for you guys!

BTW The sequel for "A kiss is just a kiss" is out now! I'm on chapter 4 or 5 i believe and I am really in love with it so far. 

Also, how do you guys like my writing and feel free to be completely honest. If I suck, tell me and why XD I always to improve my writing because I love it so much. Feedback is much appreciated! 

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